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SO!! I was thinking about this when I got up this morning! Did you know it has been almost a year since I started this weight loss journey?
Well, maybe I should call it a weight loss roller coaster to be honest with you.
I have found out A LOT of things about myself. Like I can count on NO ONE but myself to make this happen. Of course I do believe that this statement applies to most things in a persons life.
I try really hard to be a good person BUT I do occasionally get caught up in my own negative thoughts which allows me to be not such a good person.
I can say that I think for the most part I have been successful on losing weight this year.
I am down to 205.4 lbs. as of this morning on the scale. Not to shabby I must say considering I started at like 250 lbs. AND that's considering I had a HORRIBLE July where I broke my arm (still recovering from that one) and suffered a fairly severe head injury.
What is the saying though? OH WELL...THAT'S JUST LIFE!!! :)
As I draw closer to the end of this year though, I have committed myself to my goal of 150 lbs. the way I figure it is, I am half way there. I am not quitting yet! What does that prove anyways? Nothing except that I would be lacking the fortitude and strength of character to continue on with a commitment I made to myself. And if I can't keep a commitment to myself, THEN HOW IN THE WORLD CAN I KEEP A COMMITMENT TO ANYONE ELSE?!?!
You can't and that's my point!
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Wednesday, November 4, 2009
Thursday, July 16, 2009
Injuries, Set-Backs, and Triumphs!
SO...
Neola 5K came and went and I was not amongst those runners who made their way down Uintah Canyon. WHY do you ask....WELL CUZ I AM CURSED!!! LOL!!! Just kidding, I am not cursed BUT, I have been VERY serious about changing myself and my lifestyle AND this means I am bound to get injured whether I mean to or not!
OF COURSE...if you know me personally, then you also know that I am not the exact word of grace! LOL In fact, I am pretty much a MAJOR KLUTZ!! :) Thats ok though!
5 days before the 5K, I was bucked off my horse while I was running barrels in Duchense where I am a member of the Turn 'Em Tight barrel group! (NOT FUN!!) I bruised my lungs, had some serious muscle strains through my pectoral muscles, AND YES, I WILL ADMIT IT...I HAD MAJOR BRUISED EGO SYNDROME!! But lets just say to even breath at this point WITHOUT moving was about enough to make me pass out! LOL!!! So I thought I would just use a compression band that my husband has and just tough it out! Afterall, I am a cowgirl and that old saying you always hear about "cowboy up"...WELL IT IS TRUE!! It hurts, but grow up and do it anyways! SO I figured I would just have a bad time but do my run anyways!
SO...this is not the end of my tale! Since I am doing the jackpot series for my barrel group, I try to ride several times during the week so that my horse and my kid's horses are ready for Monday nights. Well on Wed night, June 30, after my accident in Duchesne and I was at the arena in Neola where I was riding and trying out a new horse my parents let me borrow when I had another accident. I remember saddling all the horses and getting on the ride. I was riding my horse Jazmyn and I was ponying (leading) the new horse Copper. This is all I remember, until I woke up the next morning at 6 AM because my alarm went off and I SWEAR i thought I had been ran over by a steam roller!! (it is ok to laugh because I am now!!!)
Well I guess my ride went great that night and when I went to load the final horse she thought she was going to get kicked by the horse in front of her so she tried to unload herself and when she did she hit the end of her trailer tie and it swung her head into the side of the trialer. Not a big deal, except my head was inbetween her head and the trailer and I went DOWN!! BIG TIME!! Like it knocked me out for about 2 min and I was unconscienous under the feet of this horse. (Good thing they are well behaved horses!!) My husband finally was able to pull me out and get me to come too, but realized how badly I had hit my head when I couldnt even remember the last 2 weeks of my life. SO I ended up the ER in Roosevelt where my neighbor was my attending physician! (THANKS JASON!!) SO...with a HUGE black eye and all my other bumps and bruises, I was forbade by my family to run on July 4th! SORRY GUYS!!!
HERE IS MY BIG NEWS THOUGH!!
So I went down yesterday to work out with Shilo and we did measurements (AND YES IT HURT LIKE HELL, BUT OH WELL!!!) AND I HAVE LOST MORE WEIGHT!! I am down to 214!!! YEAH!!! The point is that even with my injuries and set-backs, I was able to still find a way to keep going!!
JUST WAIT!! My goal for the end of July is 205 (if not lower!!)
AND I AM GETTING NEW PICS READY TO POST TO SHOW YOU THE WEIGHT I HAVE LOST!!!
Neola 5K came and went and I was not amongst those runners who made their way down Uintah Canyon. WHY do you ask....WELL CUZ I AM CURSED!!! LOL!!! Just kidding, I am not cursed BUT, I have been VERY serious about changing myself and my lifestyle AND this means I am bound to get injured whether I mean to or not!
OF COURSE...if you know me personally, then you also know that I am not the exact word of grace! LOL In fact, I am pretty much a MAJOR KLUTZ!! :) Thats ok though!
5 days before the 5K, I was bucked off my horse while I was running barrels in Duchense where I am a member of the Turn 'Em Tight barrel group! (NOT FUN!!) I bruised my lungs, had some serious muscle strains through my pectoral muscles, AND YES, I WILL ADMIT IT...I HAD MAJOR BRUISED EGO SYNDROME!! But lets just say to even breath at this point WITHOUT moving was about enough to make me pass out! LOL!!! So I thought I would just use a compression band that my husband has and just tough it out! Afterall, I am a cowgirl and that old saying you always hear about "cowboy up"...WELL IT IS TRUE!! It hurts, but grow up and do it anyways! SO I figured I would just have a bad time but do my run anyways!
SO...this is not the end of my tale! Since I am doing the jackpot series for my barrel group, I try to ride several times during the week so that my horse and my kid's horses are ready for Monday nights. Well on Wed night, June 30, after my accident in Duchesne and I was at the arena in Neola where I was riding and trying out a new horse my parents let me borrow when I had another accident. I remember saddling all the horses and getting on the ride. I was riding my horse Jazmyn and I was ponying (leading) the new horse Copper. This is all I remember, until I woke up the next morning at 6 AM because my alarm went off and I SWEAR i thought I had been ran over by a steam roller!! (it is ok to laugh because I am now!!!)
Well I guess my ride went great that night and when I went to load the final horse she thought she was going to get kicked by the horse in front of her so she tried to unload herself and when she did she hit the end of her trailer tie and it swung her head into the side of the trialer. Not a big deal, except my head was inbetween her head and the trailer and I went DOWN!! BIG TIME!! Like it knocked me out for about 2 min and I was unconscienous under the feet of this horse. (Good thing they are well behaved horses!!) My husband finally was able to pull me out and get me to come too, but realized how badly I had hit my head when I couldnt even remember the last 2 weeks of my life. SO I ended up the ER in Roosevelt where my neighbor was my attending physician! (THANKS JASON!!) SO...with a HUGE black eye and all my other bumps and bruises, I was forbade by my family to run on July 4th! SORRY GUYS!!!
HERE IS MY BIG NEWS THOUGH!!
So I went down yesterday to work out with Shilo and we did measurements (AND YES IT HURT LIKE HELL, BUT OH WELL!!!) AND I HAVE LOST MORE WEIGHT!! I am down to 214!!! YEAH!!! The point is that even with my injuries and set-backs, I was able to still find a way to keep going!!
JUST WAIT!! My goal for the end of July is 205 (if not lower!!)
AND I AM GETTING NEW PICS READY TO POST TO SHOW YOU THE WEIGHT I HAVE LOST!!!
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Its a Brain Thing
OK!
So I have had several people comment to me that they thought I needed to talk more about what I am doing to lose weight. I will but let me say why I am so hyped up about the mental side of things.
Your mindset can make or break you! It sucks to admit that sometimes, but it is the truth! Whether you are positive about yourself, or negative about yourself, it will play a HUGE impact on how and what you can accomplish!
I have already told all of you that I have struggled with depression before. A lot of that depression was brought on by the physiological response my body had to being overweight. Extra pounds on your frame can cause things to shift in the chemical make-up of your brain. I swear it is true! I have researched this for myself and while I do not claim to be a medical professional I do stand beside this belief.
Because of this mental barrier that is already in place, it can make losing weight THAT MUCH HARDER!! I do not say this as a reason for you to give up what you are doing, but to encourage to strive for that goal that much more.
My husband and I were talking the other day and I shared with him a comment that someone had told me about myself. We were discussing how because of my tendency to hyperactivity, I intimate people at times. It is not that I mean too, but because I overcompensate my own insecurities with overconfidence! I told him that I had someone call me a "contradiction in terms!" He laughed for a moment and then proceeds to tell me that I am!
Let me explain. I am a type A personality which means I am very driven and motivated and I know what I want, BUT (and this is a big BUT!) I am a self saboteur! Within my own internal psyche I do not feel that I am good enough or worthy enough for what I am working so hard for or striving so diligently to obtain. I told you I was crazy, huh? :) Ok, Ok, you can quit giggling now!
So I have these two VASTLY different emotions rolling around within my head and my heart and it can cause a lot of internal turmoil that I have had to learn to control and master. I believe that to a certain extent, we all experience this same cycle of ups and downs. Especially us women who are blessed with these extra hormones meant for helping us to bear children. That is why I am such a big time talker on the mental side of your weight loss journey.
I have my weeks where I go down and I work out with Shilo and she just kills me! Then I come home and either run on my treadmill or run with my sister AND THEN I GO AND EAT THE ENTIRE CARTON OF MOOSE TRACKS ICE CREAM!!! (Yes, I hate to admit because it is REALLY embarrassing!) Talk about TOTALLY undoing all the hard work that I had just done.
This is the reason that I feel it is SO very, VERY important to have a support group around you. You need to have others to talk to about those emotions and feelings that you are experiencing because more than likely, THEY ARE TOTALLY NORMAL!!!
I just want you to take a deep breath and realize that tomorrow is a new day and YOU CAN ALWAYS START OVER! Blog with us if you are having a hard time with something. Come and feel the support of those in this area who want to see you succeed with your goals! I know I want to see you happy...the question is, DO YOU?
Michelle 4-30-2009
So I have had several people comment to me that they thought I needed to talk more about what I am doing to lose weight. I will but let me say why I am so hyped up about the mental side of things.
Your mindset can make or break you! It sucks to admit that sometimes, but it is the truth! Whether you are positive about yourself, or negative about yourself, it will play a HUGE impact on how and what you can accomplish!
I have already told all of you that I have struggled with depression before. A lot of that depression was brought on by the physiological response my body had to being overweight. Extra pounds on your frame can cause things to shift in the chemical make-up of your brain. I swear it is true! I have researched this for myself and while I do not claim to be a medical professional I do stand beside this belief.
Because of this mental barrier that is already in place, it can make losing weight THAT MUCH HARDER!! I do not say this as a reason for you to give up what you are doing, but to encourage to strive for that goal that much more.
My husband and I were talking the other day and I shared with him a comment that someone had told me about myself. We were discussing how because of my tendency to hyperactivity, I intimate people at times. It is not that I mean too, but because I overcompensate my own insecurities with overconfidence! I told him that I had someone call me a "contradiction in terms!" He laughed for a moment and then proceeds to tell me that I am!
Let me explain. I am a type A personality which means I am very driven and motivated and I know what I want, BUT (and this is a big BUT!) I am a self saboteur! Within my own internal psyche I do not feel that I am good enough or worthy enough for what I am working so hard for or striving so diligently to obtain. I told you I was crazy, huh? :) Ok, Ok, you can quit giggling now!
So I have these two VASTLY different emotions rolling around within my head and my heart and it can cause a lot of internal turmoil that I have had to learn to control and master. I believe that to a certain extent, we all experience this same cycle of ups and downs. Especially us women who are blessed with these extra hormones meant for helping us to bear children. That is why I am such a big time talker on the mental side of your weight loss journey.
I have my weeks where I go down and I work out with Shilo and she just kills me! Then I come home and either run on my treadmill or run with my sister AND THEN I GO AND EAT THE ENTIRE CARTON OF MOOSE TRACKS ICE CREAM!!! (Yes, I hate to admit because it is REALLY embarrassing!) Talk about TOTALLY undoing all the hard work that I had just done.
This is the reason that I feel it is SO very, VERY important to have a support group around you. You need to have others to talk to about those emotions and feelings that you are experiencing because more than likely, THEY ARE TOTALLY NORMAL!!!
I just want you to take a deep breath and realize that tomorrow is a new day and YOU CAN ALWAYS START OVER! Blog with us if you are having a hard time with something. Come and feel the support of those in this area who want to see you succeed with your goals! I know I want to see you happy...the question is, DO YOU?
Michelle 4-30-2009
Sunday, March 29, 2009
End of Quarter
So it is almost the end of the first quarter of this "biggest loser" competition. And I am so excited but at the same time I am also disappointed. He he! I am such an overachiever! I feel like I should be so much further ahead of what I am!
I know, I know, I need to remember to calm down and think of everything that I have accomplished so far. I am down to 223 lbs! I am able to fit into clothes that I have had hanging in my closet for nearly a year! (I LOVE VICTORIA'S SECERT FRENCH CUFF WHITE BUTTON DOWN SHIRTS! They make you look HOT!)
BUT, I still look at this HUGE piece of blubber around my midsection that makes me look like I am about 6 months pregnant! I hate it! What I hate even more is how badly I want to have a tummy tuck and how I don't have the funds to do it! So I am sure there are lots of you out there who think I am horrible for saying that but I know women who have had tummy tucks done who had no business getting them done because they were so freaking skinny in the first place.
I do realize that I have some body issues and I guess that I will have to learn to cope and get over them, but I will keep on plugging away every day doing the little bit that I can. I still have 9 more months of this competition and I plan on seeing it through to the end and I plan on being victorious!
So Jenn and Christine, take note! Your numbers are up because I am going to put you to bed with this weight loss thing because there is NOTHING that I hate more then NOT being in first place! :)
He he! OH, I am also going to get a great pic of myself to show you all how much weight I have lost! I plan on doing that this week! I am so excited for all of you guys to see this pic! I will talk to you later!
Michelle 03-29-2009
I know, I know, I need to remember to calm down and think of everything that I have accomplished so far. I am down to 223 lbs! I am able to fit into clothes that I have had hanging in my closet for nearly a year! (I LOVE VICTORIA'S SECERT FRENCH CUFF WHITE BUTTON DOWN SHIRTS! They make you look HOT!)
BUT, I still look at this HUGE piece of blubber around my midsection that makes me look like I am about 6 months pregnant! I hate it! What I hate even more is how badly I want to have a tummy tuck and how I don't have the funds to do it! So I am sure there are lots of you out there who think I am horrible for saying that but I know women who have had tummy tucks done who had no business getting them done because they were so freaking skinny in the first place.
I do realize that I have some body issues and I guess that I will have to learn to cope and get over them, but I will keep on plugging away every day doing the little bit that I can. I still have 9 more months of this competition and I plan on seeing it through to the end and I plan on being victorious!
So Jenn and Christine, take note! Your numbers are up because I am going to put you to bed with this weight loss thing because there is NOTHING that I hate more then NOT being in first place! :)
He he! OH, I am also going to get a great pic of myself to show you all how much weight I have lost! I plan on doing that this week! I am so excited for all of you guys to see this pic! I will talk to you later!
Michelle 03-29-2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Another Small Step
So I have to post this! I WAS SO STOKED LAST THURSDAY! Shilo and I do my measurements every 4th workout. Normally this means once a week. I try to get down to Kody's and workout with her 4 times every week.
I know this isn't for everyone but it is for me. The reason why, is because then I do it! I have such a busy life and lead such a hectic lifestyle that I simply can not trust myself to workout as hard as I should being at home alone! I do get my cardio in, but even that I don't work as hard as I know I should! It is just really easy to say "15 minutes running on the treadmill is better than nothing, right? Even though I know I should be 20 or actually 30 minutes of straight running!"
Yes, I am a slacker...well not really, but in that aspect of my life, I am! I am a very type A personality and I have decided that I am going to clean the floors with my two companions. Which means I am going to take full advantage of Shilo being mean to me and forcing me to do the one more set of calf raises at 210 lbs, even though I truly thought at the time my calves were going to rip my achilles tendon right off of my calcanus bone! (YES, I HAVE DONE IT. 4 sets of 25 to be exact! Go try it, it is not easy!) I want Shilo to tell me to watch my salt! I get pissed, sure, but I also know that she is right and I am wrong, because guess who is fat and who is not! (if you haven't seen our cutie Shilo, then log onto The Edge Magazine website and look on the Healthy Edge Link or check out the March Issue ot the magazine)
I want this because I want to win! Not just so I can rub it in Christine and Jenn's face, but because I am really starting to feel the difference in my life! I can get up easier in the morning! I am sleeping better at night. I can go through the day without thinking I need a caffiene IV at 3 pm or a nap just in order to get up the enegery to make a not so healthy dinner for kids. I want to help inspire others to do this.
So, with that being said. I have been truly working out faithfully with Shilo for the last 5 weeks. Every week we can did my measurements, and every week, I saw hardly anything happening to the scale. I was losing inches though. Actually I lost nearly 6 inches in two weeks on my thighs alone. (I gaineds 2 lbs that week FYI!) So last Thurday, which was my birthday, We did measurements again. AND GUESS WHAT, I was done 5 lbs! Probably more because we weighed at 3 pm which is actually one of the worst times of the day to weigh yourself!
AND EVEN BETTER, I HAD LOST OVER 1% OF BODY FAT! I was down to 223 from 246! WHICH MEANS I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 23 LBS SO FAR!
I am not going to lie, it was hard and I even had a couple of times where I broke down with Shilo and told her I was really scared it wasn't going to happen and so why should I even bother trying. Well she gave me my moment to feel bad and then she told me pity time was over and that we needed to get back to work.
I did! I got back to work and it seems like every sinlge time I go in and work out, I am beating a personal best. I still have a long ways to go, but I have nearly reached my first goal which was to be to 220 by the end of the first quarter.
Well, I have 1 and 1/2 weeks left in this quarter and I am going to make it happen. Because this would just be another small step in reaching my really big goal!
THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT! I love hearing from you guys.
Talk to you soon
Michelle 03-19-2009
I know this isn't for everyone but it is for me. The reason why, is because then I do it! I have such a busy life and lead such a hectic lifestyle that I simply can not trust myself to workout as hard as I should being at home alone! I do get my cardio in, but even that I don't work as hard as I know I should! It is just really easy to say "15 minutes running on the treadmill is better than nothing, right? Even though I know I should be 20 or actually 30 minutes of straight running!"
Yes, I am a slacker...well not really, but in that aspect of my life, I am! I am a very type A personality and I have decided that I am going to clean the floors with my two companions. Which means I am going to take full advantage of Shilo being mean to me and forcing me to do the one more set of calf raises at 210 lbs, even though I truly thought at the time my calves were going to rip my achilles tendon right off of my calcanus bone! (YES, I HAVE DONE IT. 4 sets of 25 to be exact! Go try it, it is not easy!) I want Shilo to tell me to watch my salt! I get pissed, sure, but I also know that she is right and I am wrong, because guess who is fat and who is not! (if you haven't seen our cutie Shilo, then log onto The Edge Magazine website and look on the Healthy Edge Link or check out the March Issue ot the magazine)
I want this because I want to win! Not just so I can rub it in Christine and Jenn's face, but because I am really starting to feel the difference in my life! I can get up easier in the morning! I am sleeping better at night. I can go through the day without thinking I need a caffiene IV at 3 pm or a nap just in order to get up the enegery to make a not so healthy dinner for kids. I want to help inspire others to do this.
So, with that being said. I have been truly working out faithfully with Shilo for the last 5 weeks. Every week we can did my measurements, and every week, I saw hardly anything happening to the scale. I was losing inches though. Actually I lost nearly 6 inches in two weeks on my thighs alone. (I gaineds 2 lbs that week FYI!) So last Thurday, which was my birthday, We did measurements again. AND GUESS WHAT, I was done 5 lbs! Probably more because we weighed at 3 pm which is actually one of the worst times of the day to weigh yourself!
AND EVEN BETTER, I HAD LOST OVER 1% OF BODY FAT! I was down to 223 from 246! WHICH MEANS I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 23 LBS SO FAR!
I am not going to lie, it was hard and I even had a couple of times where I broke down with Shilo and told her I was really scared it wasn't going to happen and so why should I even bother trying. Well she gave me my moment to feel bad and then she told me pity time was over and that we needed to get back to work.
I did! I got back to work and it seems like every sinlge time I go in and work out, I am beating a personal best. I still have a long ways to go, but I have nearly reached my first goal which was to be to 220 by the end of the first quarter.
Well, I have 1 and 1/2 weeks left in this quarter and I am going to make it happen. Because this would just be another small step in reaching my really big goal!
THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT! I love hearing from you guys.
Talk to you soon
Michelle 03-19-2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
March Madness
I love those words..."MARCH MADNESS". Not because I follow College basketball or anything but because March seems to be a month that is just filled with the madness that is our lives!
So it has been a little while since I blogged and I apologize for that. I have discovered that blogging is like all other "good" habits a person might have...YOU HAVE TO WORK AT IT! LOL!
Well I am REALLY excited to announce that I have nearly completed my first full session with Shilo. I don't think session is the right word but it basically means that I will have completed 16 full work outs with her. Thursday was supposed to be the day (tomorrow) but I had a little bit of an unexpected distraction today and so I didn't get to go and work out and I wont lie, it mad me REALLY CRANKY!
My workouts with Shilo are beginning to become a fix for me. If I have an appt and I have to miss or reschedule, it really pisses me off. I am sure that sounds funny to you! It sounded to funny to myself when I first thought it, but it is so true.
So I will go and see her tomorrow and then again on Fri AND THEN....(drumroll please)....Shilo will give me full stats as to what I have lost pound, inch, and body fat percentage wise! I know I have not lost a ton of weight (YET!) but I do know that in this last month I have lost a lot of inches overall so I am excited to see the results. I will post them as soon as I get them from her!
So for now, I will sign off and say good night! I have to go and help my son set-up for district history fair in the morning. He took first place here in Neola! AND THEN...I am going to work out with SHILO!!! My torturer as I fondly call her! :)
Talk to you soon!
Michelle 3-11-2009
So it has been a little while since I blogged and I apologize for that. I have discovered that blogging is like all other "good" habits a person might have...YOU HAVE TO WORK AT IT! LOL!
Well I am REALLY excited to announce that I have nearly completed my first full session with Shilo. I don't think session is the right word but it basically means that I will have completed 16 full work outs with her. Thursday was supposed to be the day (tomorrow) but I had a little bit of an unexpected distraction today and so I didn't get to go and work out and I wont lie, it mad me REALLY CRANKY!
My workouts with Shilo are beginning to become a fix for me. If I have an appt and I have to miss or reschedule, it really pisses me off. I am sure that sounds funny to you! It sounded to funny to myself when I first thought it, but it is so true.
So I will go and see her tomorrow and then again on Fri AND THEN....(drumroll please)....Shilo will give me full stats as to what I have lost pound, inch, and body fat percentage wise! I know I have not lost a ton of weight (YET!) but I do know that in this last month I have lost a lot of inches overall so I am excited to see the results. I will post them as soon as I get them from her!
So for now, I will sign off and say good night! I have to go and help my son set-up for district history fair in the morning. He took first place here in Neola! AND THEN...I am going to work out with SHILO!!! My torturer as I fondly call her! :)
Talk to you soon!
Michelle 3-11-2009
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Finky Funks
Ok so about a month Christine was in a funk....
Well now I am! :) I am sure you can tell since I am doing a horrendous job of actually blogging. Mostly it is because of the stress of work. Yes, it is TONS of work to pull off this magazine each month.
I gained two pounds last month so I am going on the pill called phentermine. Dr. Shurtlef prescribed it for me. He said it is also supposed to help with the whole fatigue thing. I know, I know...TONS of people think taking pills is wrong, BUT i am so desperate to lose the weight, I will try anything once!
Gotta go...MORE WORK AND WAY MORE STRESS! lol
Well now I am! :) I am sure you can tell since I am doing a horrendous job of actually blogging. Mostly it is because of the stress of work. Yes, it is TONS of work to pull off this magazine each month.
I gained two pounds last month so I am going on the pill called phentermine. Dr. Shurtlef prescribed it for me. He said it is also supposed to help with the whole fatigue thing. I know, I know...TONS of people think taking pills is wrong, BUT i am so desperate to lose the weight, I will try anything once!
Gotta go...MORE WORK AND WAY MORE STRESS! lol
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Actions and Choices
"The most decisive actions of our life ... are most often unconsidered actions." -Andre Gide
I thought that this quote was so true no matter what the circumstances are in your life. Losing weight, relationships, career choices, etc; your unconsidered actions are normally what mold your life. Like tonight when I was eating dinner with my husband, I just kept eating and eating and eating, even though I was full. I did not even realize what I was doing!
Well, I finally pushed my plate away and told Seth "NO MORE FOR ME!"
Some unconscious and unconsidered actions are what have caused me to become the overweight person that I am now. This is truly a lifestyle change for me, not just a "diet" and because I am changing my lifestyle, it is not always going to be easy!
One day at time! that is all I can say!
I am in my wranglers though! YEAH! I am losing the weight and going down in inches and lbs. I am just wishing I was seeing it happen faster! :)
Michelle 1-24-2009
I thought that this quote was so true no matter what the circumstances are in your life. Losing weight, relationships, career choices, etc; your unconsidered actions are normally what mold your life. Like tonight when I was eating dinner with my husband, I just kept eating and eating and eating, even though I was full. I did not even realize what I was doing!
Well, I finally pushed my plate away and told Seth "NO MORE FOR ME!"
Some unconscious and unconsidered actions are what have caused me to become the overweight person that I am now. This is truly a lifestyle change for me, not just a "diet" and because I am changing my lifestyle, it is not always going to be easy!
One day at time! that is all I can say!
I am in my wranglers though! YEAH! I am losing the weight and going down in inches and lbs. I am just wishing I was seeing it happen faster! :)
Michelle 1-24-2009
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
It Must Be a Tuesday!
LOL!! SO I hate Tuesday! Ok, not really but Tuesdays are always SO busy! Not just for work, but also for the stuff the kids and I do. From 3:00 PM until 8:00 PM we are down in town running them around to a few of their after school activities. My kids do art, dance, and tumbling and I am so glad!
Here is the problem...
because we are in town so much, we end up eating in town and YES, I caved today and ate 2, just count them 2 Arby's Melts. I am sure they are like 5 million calories each, but I was hungry and tired! I have found that the more tired I am, the more I eat. Have any of you noticed that before?
I am sure that means I should go to bed earlier. LOL!!! I laugh about it, BUT it is only because anyone who has ever been a parent or tried to build a business from the ground up will understand my fatigue! Even better yet, if you have ever done both like Christine, Jenn and I are doing, then you will REALLY understand it! BUT, this also means that sometimes I miss my appt with Carl.
I AM SO SORRY CARL!!! I had a meeting come up and it was one of those important ones because it had to do with my kids!
OH WELL...I am constantly telling myself this...
"Short term sacrifices for long term gains!"
This simply means that I must do the stuff that is a pain in the butt for a little while, just so we can get to the point where we can begin to enjoy the fruits of our labors. The day will come and I will be able to fit into the those "skinny" jeans! I am going to see Carl tomorrow. I am not giving up. I did get in 4 sessions with Carl last week and that doesn't count the stuff I did on my own. I am getting there.
I am nervous because Jenn and I were talking today about trying on and fitting into some of our jeans that we keep buried in the back of our closets. I told her that I had lost enough weight that I was considering trying some of mine on, but I am SSSOOO nervous and scared that I don't want to. LOL!!! I just don't want to find out that I am still to fat to put them on.
Oh well, I will just have to pull up my panty hose and be a big girl, huh?
Talk to you tomorrow!
Michelle 1-14-2008
Here is the problem...
because we are in town so much, we end up eating in town and YES, I caved today and ate 2, just count them 2 Arby's Melts. I am sure they are like 5 million calories each, but I was hungry and tired! I have found that the more tired I am, the more I eat. Have any of you noticed that before?
I am sure that means I should go to bed earlier. LOL!!! I laugh about it, BUT it is only because anyone who has ever been a parent or tried to build a business from the ground up will understand my fatigue! Even better yet, if you have ever done both like Christine, Jenn and I are doing, then you will REALLY understand it! BUT, this also means that sometimes I miss my appt with Carl.
I AM SO SORRY CARL!!! I had a meeting come up and it was one of those important ones because it had to do with my kids!
OH WELL...I am constantly telling myself this...
"Short term sacrifices for long term gains!"
This simply means that I must do the stuff that is a pain in the butt for a little while, just so we can get to the point where we can begin to enjoy the fruits of our labors. The day will come and I will be able to fit into the those "skinny" jeans! I am going to see Carl tomorrow. I am not giving up. I did get in 4 sessions with Carl last week and that doesn't count the stuff I did on my own. I am getting there.
I am nervous because Jenn and I were talking today about trying on and fitting into some of our jeans that we keep buried in the back of our closets. I told her that I had lost enough weight that I was considering trying some of mine on, but I am SSSOOO nervous and scared that I don't want to. LOL!!! I just don't want to find out that I am still to fat to put them on.
Oh well, I will just have to pull up my panty hose and be a big girl, huh?
Talk to you tomorrow!
Michelle 1-14-2008
Sunday, January 11, 2009
LONG WEEK!
hehe! Ok so it has been a few days since I wrote, BUT it is because this last week was VERY busy. We got the magazines in late, which yes, we were all just a LITTLE stressed over here about, BUT we managed and we did not gain any weight. So I was busy doing deliveries and sending out subscriptions and all of that fun stuff. THEN on top of it all, I got to go in and see Dr. Shurtliff this last week.
DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I WEIGHED IN AT?
WELL....
DO YA...
THIS IS SO COOL!
I weighed in at 231.some other #. YEAH!!!!! So the first time I went and I say Dr. Shurtliff, was only 2 months ago and I weighed 246. some #. I made it through the holidays with the help of Carl and the girls without gaining ANY weight at all. Then on top of it, I find out that I actually lost 15 lbs according to the doc's scale. I do want to say this also though, the VERY first I weighed myself was about 2 weeks before I go to go and see the doc and it was on my mom and dad's scale. Well, if you have read my other blogs then you will remember this scale is not too reliable because it said I weighed like 6 lbs less then I actually did. BUT when I did weigh myself on it the first time, it read 250 lbs. So I am going to say I have lost nearly 20 lbs since the very, very beginning of this contest. Oh, I won't say that i have not had some slip-ups with food and such, BUT I have been trying really hard and everyone at The Edge Christmas party last night (yes we had it last night...better late then never right?) said that they could tell I have lost weight.
YEAH!!! That made me so happy. I can tell they have lost weight too though! We all are looking REALLY good right now Not as good as what we want to be, but considering we just went through the holidays, I am really impressed with how this is turning out!
Dr. Shurtliff just kept saying how proud he was of me. It really made me feel good to hear that from him because I have been working REALLY hard at this!
Well, I am going to go for now, haven't been to bed before 2 AM this whole last week because of work so I am going to hit the hay early tonight so I am ready to hit the ground running tomorrow. Thanks for your support and talk to you later!
Michelle 1-11-2009
DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I WEIGHED IN AT?
WELL....
DO YA...
THIS IS SO COOL!
I weighed in at 231.some other #. YEAH!!!!! So the first time I went and I say Dr. Shurtliff, was only 2 months ago and I weighed 246. some #. I made it through the holidays with the help of Carl and the girls without gaining ANY weight at all. Then on top of it, I find out that I actually lost 15 lbs according to the doc's scale. I do want to say this also though, the VERY first I weighed myself was about 2 weeks before I go to go and see the doc and it was on my mom and dad's scale. Well, if you have read my other blogs then you will remember this scale is not too reliable because it said I weighed like 6 lbs less then I actually did. BUT when I did weigh myself on it the first time, it read 250 lbs. So I am going to say I have lost nearly 20 lbs since the very, very beginning of this contest. Oh, I won't say that i have not had some slip-ups with food and such, BUT I have been trying really hard and everyone at The Edge Christmas party last night (yes we had it last night...better late then never right?) said that they could tell I have lost weight.
YEAH!!! That made me so happy. I can tell they have lost weight too though! We all are looking REALLY good right now Not as good as what we want to be, but considering we just went through the holidays, I am really impressed with how this is turning out!
Dr. Shurtliff just kept saying how proud he was of me. It really made me feel good to hear that from him because I have been working REALLY hard at this!
Well, I am going to go for now, haven't been to bed before 2 AM this whole last week because of work so I am going to hit the hay early tonight so I am ready to hit the ground running tomorrow. Thanks for your support and talk to you later!
Michelle 1-11-2009
Monday, January 5, 2009
I DID IT!
YEAH! What did I tell you guys about Mondays? I LOVE THEM!! Especially when I get to go down to Kody's and make it through my workout!
Actually I have to brag on Jenn a moment because she was feeling icky with that wonderful gift mother nature grants us women each month...yes...you know what I am talking about so please DON'T ask me to spell it out for you! And she still totally kicked my a@& at the weights! AAAHHHH!!! I am going nuts! :) I am just only a LITTLE competitive if you haven't noticed!
No seriously! She really did do awesome and I mean she had cramps so bad she would have to stop for a second and take a breather and SHE STILL DID BETTER THEN ME! I was kinda hoping I might beat her today, BUT OBVIOUSLY NOT!
THAT'S OK! I figure if I have to lose, then I want it to be to her or Christine because they both work so hard and are both doing so awesome with this whole fitness thing. I am getting better each week though. I have to admit that I love getting to work out with either one of them because I feel like I push myself that much harder and I don't allow myself to slack. We were doing some pull down thingies with this rope on the weight machine and it was heavier then Carl and I normally do for me and it was so cool because Jenn was right there cheering me on! I LOVE IT! THANKS!!!
So I made it back after a not so hot weekend last week and I am glad. There is always a bright side to being sick though Carl told me...YOU NORMALLY LOSE WEIGHT!!! :) I think I did, in fact I might sneak a peek at my weight on the scale tomorrow when I go back down!
I will keep you guys posted! ha ha...get it...POSTED!
NIGHT!
Michelle 1-5-2009
Actually I have to brag on Jenn a moment because she was feeling icky with that wonderful gift mother nature grants us women each month...yes...you know what I am talking about so please DON'T ask me to spell it out for you! And she still totally kicked my a@& at the weights! AAAHHHH!!! I am going nuts! :) I am just only a LITTLE competitive if you haven't noticed!
No seriously! She really did do awesome and I mean she had cramps so bad she would have to stop for a second and take a breather and SHE STILL DID BETTER THEN ME! I was kinda hoping I might beat her today, BUT OBVIOUSLY NOT!
THAT'S OK! I figure if I have to lose, then I want it to be to her or Christine because they both work so hard and are both doing so awesome with this whole fitness thing. I am getting better each week though. I have to admit that I love getting to work out with either one of them because I feel like I push myself that much harder and I don't allow myself to slack. We were doing some pull down thingies with this rope on the weight machine and it was heavier then Carl and I normally do for me and it was so cool because Jenn was right there cheering me on! I LOVE IT! THANKS!!!
So I made it back after a not so hot weekend last week and I am glad. There is always a bright side to being sick though Carl told me...YOU NORMALLY LOSE WEIGHT!!! :) I think I did, in fact I might sneak a peek at my weight on the scale tomorrow when I go back down!
I will keep you guys posted! ha ha...get it...POSTED!
NIGHT!
Michelle 1-5-2009
Friday, January 2, 2009
Sick and Tired
So Carl sent me home early today. I almost cried! I was so sad. I went down at 9 AM this morning to work out and I wanted to make sure I got this workout in because I missed my workout on Wednesday.
I didn't want to miss it, in fact I really tried hard to get there but to be honest I just felt plain POOPY! I am not sure if I got the flu or if I just am feeling blue about the holidays or if it is because I am still struggling with the suicide of a young lady I know who lives by me, but I have been sick to my stomach.
I know that "they" say that you should go and work out when you are not feeling good because it will help you to feel better and so that is why I decided to try to push through and just do it this morning.
Well I barely made it through my workout on the stair climber today and normally it wouldn't even be that hard. Then he had me go out and try to do some arms work. Well we start the first set and he gives me 60 lbs which is what I did with it that last time and I ABOUT DIED! Seriously. There was no pushing through and still making it, I mean I literally got stuck and no matter how hard I tried to push, I could not get my arms to move. It was a bit disturbing to me.
Carl tells me "Why don't you go home and just rest? I can tell you aren't feeling good." HOW SAD! I was sad. I didn't want to go home early. THAT SUCKS! He told me that we will do it again on Monday and for me to get some rest. I hope he is right.
I have been through the depression thing BIG TIME and I DO NOT want to go there again. I am more afraid that is it that then anything else, SO I am going to read some books and veg with my kids and if I feel good enough, go and play with my horses! I WANT TO GET BETTER!
Michelle 1-2-2009
I didn't want to miss it, in fact I really tried hard to get there but to be honest I just felt plain POOPY! I am not sure if I got the flu or if I just am feeling blue about the holidays or if it is because I am still struggling with the suicide of a young lady I know who lives by me, but I have been sick to my stomach.
I know that "they" say that you should go and work out when you are not feeling good because it will help you to feel better and so that is why I decided to try to push through and just do it this morning.
Well I barely made it through my workout on the stair climber today and normally it wouldn't even be that hard. Then he had me go out and try to do some arms work. Well we start the first set and he gives me 60 lbs which is what I did with it that last time and I ABOUT DIED! Seriously. There was no pushing through and still making it, I mean I literally got stuck and no matter how hard I tried to push, I could not get my arms to move. It was a bit disturbing to me.
Carl tells me "Why don't you go home and just rest? I can tell you aren't feeling good." HOW SAD! I was sad. I didn't want to go home early. THAT SUCKS! He told me that we will do it again on Monday and for me to get some rest. I hope he is right.
I have been through the depression thing BIG TIME and I DO NOT want to go there again. I am more afraid that is it that then anything else, SO I am going to read some books and veg with my kids and if I feel good enough, go and play with my horses! I WANT TO GET BETTER!
Michelle 1-2-2009
Monday, December 29, 2008
A Brand New Year!
Ok, Ok, so I realize that it is not officially the "New Year" yet, BUT for me it is the beginning of MY New Year!
Jenn and I went and worked out with Carl today. (You have to read her blog! It is a great story!) AND I got to weigh in. Well, I was a little disappointed but then I had to take it all into perspective and I realized that I am still doing good!
So the last time Carl and I weighed, I was down to 238.5 lbs. When I weighed today, I was 237.75 lbs. I am sure that for some of you it sounds dumb to even worry about 3/4 of a lbs. BUT HEY, IT IS WEIGHT THAT I LOST DURING THE CHRISTMAS BREAK!
I mean we had homemade caramel! (Seth makes to die for caramel!) LOTS of candy and cookies and pies at my parent's house, PLUS meats like ham (BAD) and prime rib (EVEN BADDER!). Yes, I know "badder" isn't a word!
I was just excited that I lost a little something and that I did not gain. I watched a thing on TV last night and they were talking about how something like 95% of Americans GAIN weight over the holidays. So I guess if nothing else I can say that once again I am going against the grain and not acting like everyone else! :)
I figure that if I just pretend that this is January 1st then I am done with my sweets and goodies and I can get down to the business of getting fit! I am serious when I say that I am not going to back down from this challenage! I know that Christine and Jennifer are serious about this too! I was WAY proud of Jenn today! We were both dying of heat exhaustion today and even when Jenn was hit with a wave of nausea, SHE CAME BACK AND FINISHED WHAT SHE STARTED!!!
Plus, I decided that I can't go and lift with Jenn anymore! She outlifted me and I just can't handle that! :) I AM SO KIDDING! She really did kick butt today! I am SSSSSOOOOO proud of her!
Tomorrow we go back and see Carl again! I can't wait! :/ I will survive though!
Michelle 12-29-2008
Jenn and I went and worked out with Carl today. (You have to read her blog! It is a great story!) AND I got to weigh in. Well, I was a little disappointed but then I had to take it all into perspective and I realized that I am still doing good!
So the last time Carl and I weighed, I was down to 238.5 lbs. When I weighed today, I was 237.75 lbs. I am sure that for some of you it sounds dumb to even worry about 3/4 of a lbs. BUT HEY, IT IS WEIGHT THAT I LOST DURING THE CHRISTMAS BREAK!
I mean we had homemade caramel! (Seth makes to die for caramel!) LOTS of candy and cookies and pies at my parent's house, PLUS meats like ham (BAD) and prime rib (EVEN BADDER!). Yes, I know "badder" isn't a word!
I was just excited that I lost a little something and that I did not gain. I watched a thing on TV last night and they were talking about how something like 95% of Americans GAIN weight over the holidays. So I guess if nothing else I can say that once again I am going against the grain and not acting like everyone else! :)
I figure that if I just pretend that this is January 1st then I am done with my sweets and goodies and I can get down to the business of getting fit! I am serious when I say that I am not going to back down from this challenage! I know that Christine and Jennifer are serious about this too! I was WAY proud of Jenn today! We were both dying of heat exhaustion today and even when Jenn was hit with a wave of nausea, SHE CAME BACK AND FINISHED WHAT SHE STARTED!!!
Plus, I decided that I can't go and lift with Jenn anymore! She outlifted me and I just can't handle that! :) I AM SO KIDDING! She really did kick butt today! I am SSSSSOOOOO proud of her!
Tomorrow we go back and see Carl again! I can't wait! :/ I will survive though!
Michelle 12-29-2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Play Time is Over!
AAAHHH!
So, I got a text tonight from Carl! It was at about 8:30 PM and it said, "Ladies, what time tomorrow?"
How Sweet! LOL!!! I won't lie, I was totally planning on going tomorrow anyways, in fact, Jenn and I were already making plans to be there at 9 AM tomorrow so that we could get a workout in before my dentist appt!
Call me crazy, but I m actually looking forward to the workout! I think since I have been working with Dr. Shurtlif on my thyriod issues, I am FINALLY after all these many years beginning to understand the "rush" that Christine talks about when she says she gets a rush from working out!
THANK GOODNESS! I am excited to weigh myself and see where I am standing weight wise after these long weeks of holiday goodies! I HAVE DONE NOT TO BAD! :) I think I will have still lost weight, but tomorrow we will find out for sure!
I will let you know! Talk to you later and GOOD NIGHT! 6 AM comes early when your up this late!
Michelle 12-28-2008
So, I got a text tonight from Carl! It was at about 8:30 PM and it said, "Ladies, what time tomorrow?"
How Sweet! LOL!!! I won't lie, I was totally planning on going tomorrow anyways, in fact, Jenn and I were already making plans to be there at 9 AM tomorrow so that we could get a workout in before my dentist appt!
Call me crazy, but I m actually looking forward to the workout! I think since I have been working with Dr. Shurtlif on my thyriod issues, I am FINALLY after all these many years beginning to understand the "rush" that Christine talks about when she says she gets a rush from working out!
THANK GOODNESS! I am excited to weigh myself and see where I am standing weight wise after these long weeks of holiday goodies! I HAVE DONE NOT TO BAD! :) I think I will have still lost weight, but tomorrow we will find out for sure!
I will let you know! Talk to you later and GOOD NIGHT! 6 AM comes early when your up this late!
Michelle 12-28-2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
HOLIDAYS!
YEAH!!! So how was your Christmas?
MINE...was so much fun! I love being able to spoil my kids. Granted this year was a bit tighter then normal just because of the economy, BUT it was still really good! I must say that I was really excited because it looks like I STILL LOST WEIGHT!
I saw Carl on Mon but then with the holidays I havent been down to the gym since then. BUT, I have still been watching what I eat. (yesterday I splurged a little bit because I ate some cake and some candy!) Ok, so I splurged a little today because I ate a couple of extra hot wings at lunch!
I am not sure what I weigh, BUT I am excited to get back to the gym with Carl and to really start off this New Year the right way!
Michelle 12-26-2008
MINE...was so much fun! I love being able to spoil my kids. Granted this year was a bit tighter then normal just because of the economy, BUT it was still really good! I must say that I was really excited because it looks like I STILL LOST WEIGHT!
I saw Carl on Mon but then with the holidays I havent been down to the gym since then. BUT, I have still been watching what I eat. (yesterday I splurged a little bit because I ate some cake and some candy!) Ok, so I splurged a little today because I ate a couple of extra hot wings at lunch!
I am not sure what I weigh, BUT I am excited to get back to the gym with Carl and to really start off this New Year the right way!
Michelle 12-26-2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
NO MU-MUS FOR ME!!
SO...
Today was weigh in day! AND GUESS WHAT....
I LOST FIVE AND HALF MORE POUNDS!!!
YA! Now according to Carl's scale, I weigh 238.5! I am so excited! Actually the big deal is that I got a shirt on today that I have not been able to get around my belly to button up ever since I bought it!
I am horrible that way! I have probably somewhere in the thousands of dollars worth of clothes in my closet or packed away that I keep telling myself, "One day..."
The reason why I do this is because they simply do not have cute fat girl clothes. I am sorry, but they don't! The shirt tails are ALWAYS to short, the chest area is never big enough to accommodate what God gave me in the bra department. It is ridiculous!
I DON'T WANT TO WEAR A MU-MU FOR CHURCH!!!
In all seriousness, I mean I do realize that the front cover of Sports Illustrated Swim Suit Edition will never be for me. I have had several major ligaments torn in my abdomen due to my beautiful children and only a good Doctor will ever fix that, HOWEVER....I can still lose enough weight to look hot in all of the beautiful clothes I have bought over the years but leave hanging in the back of my closet or in a box someplace downstairs!
IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!
IT IS HAPPENING!!
I RAN FOR 25 MINUTES YESTERDAY AND I DIDN'T DIE! Trust me, I thought I was, but I didn't! And I even told Carl that he was going to have to catch me so I didn't fly off the back of the treadmill because I was so TIRED! But I did it!
And he worked me just as hard today and I go back and see him again on Friday!
Seriously you guys! I love the fact that Carl doesn't let me say "NO"! If I start complaining then he tells me, "Where's Your Power?" or "AAAAHHHH". (smart ass anyways!) :) I am so glad though because I know for a fact I would not have done what I have in this contest thus far if it were not for the help of Carl, Dr. Shurtleff, and my friends and family!
I don't have such great will power when it is just me, but I will work really hard to please! AND now that those AWFUL pics are out there for the whole world to see, I GOTTA CHANGE HOW I LOOK RIGHT?
oh and by the way! I AM SO THE WINNER AT NO DIET COKE!!! :) Bow down and worship me girls! (that means you, Jennifer and Christine!) It has been how long now, I don't know, like a month and I seriously think, that this is the only reason that I am able to do the running I am doing right now.
OH AND GET THIS, (yes, it is my blog so I get to brag about myself a little!) WHEN I AM DOING MY RUNNING, it is on 3.5 incline in the treadmill and at 4.5 speed. I am not sure what the incline is equivalent to, but the 4.5 speed means 4.5 miles per hour! YESTERDAY, I did a 13 minute and 27 second mile! I am sure for some that is lame, BUT considering about a month ago I couldn't even do 30 seconds without about passing out...I AM HAPPY! I will admit that I used to run cross country in High School and at the time, I was able to run a 7 min mile. Once I even got down into the 6 minute range. MAN, that seems SO fast compared to what I am doing now but at least I know I can do it right!
Well, I am going to head to bed! I am sore and VERY tired! I have spent the last 3 or 4 nights up VERY late working on the layout and I am DEAD! It has been an awesome week for both exercise and the magazine and we are all so excited to see what happens this next year!
Later
Michelle 12-17-2008
Today was weigh in day! AND GUESS WHAT....
I LOST FIVE AND HALF MORE POUNDS!!!
YA! Now according to Carl's scale, I weigh 238.5! I am so excited! Actually the big deal is that I got a shirt on today that I have not been able to get around my belly to button up ever since I bought it!
I am horrible that way! I have probably somewhere in the thousands of dollars worth of clothes in my closet or packed away that I keep telling myself, "One day..."
The reason why I do this is because they simply do not have cute fat girl clothes. I am sorry, but they don't! The shirt tails are ALWAYS to short, the chest area is never big enough to accommodate what God gave me in the bra department. It is ridiculous!
I DON'T WANT TO WEAR A MU-MU FOR CHURCH!!!
In all seriousness, I mean I do realize that the front cover of Sports Illustrated Swim Suit Edition will never be for me. I have had several major ligaments torn in my abdomen due to my beautiful children and only a good Doctor will ever fix that, HOWEVER....I can still lose enough weight to look hot in all of the beautiful clothes I have bought over the years but leave hanging in the back of my closet or in a box someplace downstairs!
IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!
IT IS HAPPENING!!
I RAN FOR 25 MINUTES YESTERDAY AND I DIDN'T DIE! Trust me, I thought I was, but I didn't! And I even told Carl that he was going to have to catch me so I didn't fly off the back of the treadmill because I was so TIRED! But I did it!
And he worked me just as hard today and I go back and see him again on Friday!
Seriously you guys! I love the fact that Carl doesn't let me say "NO"! If I start complaining then he tells me, "Where's Your Power?" or "AAAAHHHH". (smart ass anyways!) :) I am so glad though because I know for a fact I would not have done what I have in this contest thus far if it were not for the help of Carl, Dr. Shurtleff, and my friends and family!
I don't have such great will power when it is just me, but I will work really hard to please! AND now that those AWFUL pics are out there for the whole world to see, I GOTTA CHANGE HOW I LOOK RIGHT?
oh and by the way! I AM SO THE WINNER AT NO DIET COKE!!! :) Bow down and worship me girls! (that means you, Jennifer and Christine!) It has been how long now, I don't know, like a month and I seriously think, that this is the only reason that I am able to do the running I am doing right now.
OH AND GET THIS, (yes, it is my blog so I get to brag about myself a little!) WHEN I AM DOING MY RUNNING, it is on 3.5 incline in the treadmill and at 4.5 speed. I am not sure what the incline is equivalent to, but the 4.5 speed means 4.5 miles per hour! YESTERDAY, I did a 13 minute and 27 second mile! I am sure for some that is lame, BUT considering about a month ago I couldn't even do 30 seconds without about passing out...I AM HAPPY! I will admit that I used to run cross country in High School and at the time, I was able to run a 7 min mile. Once I even got down into the 6 minute range. MAN, that seems SO fast compared to what I am doing now but at least I know I can do it right!
Well, I am going to head to bed! I am sore and VERY tired! I have spent the last 3 or 4 nights up VERY late working on the layout and I am DEAD! It has been an awesome week for both exercise and the magazine and we are all so excited to see what happens this next year!
Later
Michelle 12-17-2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Mondays...UGH~
Ok, So a while ago I said that I loved Mondays, and I still do, except for the fact that Mondays are now my....(GASP!)...dreaded weighing in day with Carl! UGH!
Actually, I feel really bad because I didn't get to go and work out with Carl today. After a meeting I had this morning, my 4 year-old started to not just complain, but cry profusely that his ear was hurting. I knew that there was no way I could feel good about me dragging him to the gym and working out with him being in such pain. That is not what a good mom does.
Instead I went home and got him settled into watching a movie and then I set about the (GASP!) wonderful task of cleaning my office. Ok so I will admit that I am not a dirty person, but I am a cluttered person. I am a classic stacker! I can have piles and piles and piles of paper and for the most part, I know where things are. Most of it is my fault because I simply need to get better organizational tools, like filing cabinets and book case and a bigger desk, but the other part of it is that I am a procrastinator and I will wait until the last minute on somethings when I really shouldn't! BUT, at least my going through stacks of paper and organizing things was productive and NOT eating candy. (today was stressful at work!)
BUT GUESS WHAT!!! I am going in tomorrow to work out with Carl and then again on Wed and hopefully Thursday too! I am doing SSSSOOOO good at avoiding those Christmas treats and I can not wait to see what to see how much weight I am hopefuly gonna lose!
WISH ME LUCK YOU GUYS!!! I am nervous and scared, but I am hoping that I get to see those numbers go DOWN!!!
YEAH!!!
Actually, I feel really bad because I didn't get to go and work out with Carl today. After a meeting I had this morning, my 4 year-old started to not just complain, but cry profusely that his ear was hurting. I knew that there was no way I could feel good about me dragging him to the gym and working out with him being in such pain. That is not what a good mom does.
Instead I went home and got him settled into watching a movie and then I set about the (GASP!) wonderful task of cleaning my office. Ok so I will admit that I am not a dirty person, but I am a cluttered person. I am a classic stacker! I can have piles and piles and piles of paper and for the most part, I know where things are. Most of it is my fault because I simply need to get better organizational tools, like filing cabinets and book case and a bigger desk, but the other part of it is that I am a procrastinator and I will wait until the last minute on somethings when I really shouldn't! BUT, at least my going through stacks of paper and organizing things was productive and NOT eating candy. (today was stressful at work!)
BUT GUESS WHAT!!! I am going in tomorrow to work out with Carl and then again on Wed and hopefully Thursday too! I am doing SSSSOOOO good at avoiding those Christmas treats and I can not wait to see what to see how much weight I am hopefuly gonna lose!
WISH ME LUCK YOU GUYS!!! I am nervous and scared, but I am hoping that I get to see those numbers go DOWN!!!
YEAH!!!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
A little bit of insight...
Ok, So I went in today and got to see Dr. Shurtlef again. It was good! It also sucked because even with the counting calories and excercising, I only lost 2 pounds! Ok, so my earlier excitement of thing I had lost a bunch of wieght was swiftly shot in the ass and quickly deflated!
So the moral of this story is...
ONLY WEIGH ON ONE SCALE!!!! Or two actually, the one with your doctor and the one at the gym because they can vary!
So Dr. Shurtleff did tell me he was very proud of me and the fact that I actually lost weight over the Thanksgiving weekend. He said most patients are lucky to maintain because all those holiday treats are hard to resist! AND THEY ARE FOR ME TOO!!!
I told him I had a couple of breakdowns where I had indulged in candy, BUT I was still excercising and NOT DRINKING DIET COKE!!!
He said he was proud of me! YEAH!!
I must also say that even though I broke down and ate that candy, it was like a handful of M & M's instead of the whole 2lbs bag. (yes, I have done that before!) Also when I did do these things, I made myself work extra on my treadmill!
It is coming, I know it is. I had Carl, Jenn, and Christine tell me that they can see it in my face that I am losing weight. I am so glad, I want this SSSSOOOO bad! I really am trying so hard to be good with how I eat and excercise. It is hard but like I told Carl last night,
NO PAIN, NO GAIN...RIGHT?
Ok so to prove how serious I am about doing this, check out my knuckles! This is from using the punching bag. AND YES, I HAD MY KNUCKLES WRAPPED!!! I was seriously trying to hit that hard! THANKS CARL FOR KICKING MY BUTT INTO SHAPE!!!
These are my knuckles after last night's bout with the punching bag! I know they are kinda gross! BUT WORTH IT!!!
These are my knuckles after last night's bout with the punching bag! I know they are kinda gross! BUT WORTH IT!!!Monday, December 8, 2008
Weigh Ins
Ok, So I have to admit today was very bittersweet for me! I went and got to work out with Carl today right! It was great and I can already tell I am going to be sore tomorrow! Well, I weighed in also, just like Jenn!
I WAS SO DEPRESSED!!!
When I weighed in with Carl, the scale told me I weighed 244. I am going to chalk this massively disappointing event to the fact that this is not the scale I normally weigh myself on and so there is a still a chance that I have lost the weight that I thought I did last Fri when I had a scale tell me that I weighed only 238!
Here is the hard part though...
I was so deflated about this, that I totally came home and ate candy! Ok, so not a ton of candy, but I am sure I are enough that all the work I did today is probably null and void!
I seriously feel like a loser right now! Hopefully it is just PMS and I will be over it in a week! LOL!!!
We will see. I go back and see Dr. Shurtleff on Thursday and hopefully his scale has better news for me then the one at the gym today!!
I WAS SO DEPRESSED!!!
When I weighed in with Carl, the scale told me I weighed 244. I am going to chalk this massively disappointing event to the fact that this is not the scale I normally weigh myself on and so there is a still a chance that I have lost the weight that I thought I did last Fri when I had a scale tell me that I weighed only 238!
Here is the hard part though...
I was so deflated about this, that I totally came home and ate candy! Ok, so not a ton of candy, but I am sure I are enough that all the work I did today is probably null and void!
I seriously feel like a loser right now! Hopefully it is just PMS and I will be over it in a week! LOL!!!
We will see. I go back and see Dr. Shurtleff on Thursday and hopefully his scale has better news for me then the one at the gym today!!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
THE BIG NEWS!
Ok, OK! I will just come right out and tell you!
Hugh Hefner called last night and well... you know I just had to say no to that offer! I cant be his new girlfriend cuz I already got an awesome husband! LOL!!!
I AM SO KIDDING YOU GUYS!!!
Actually what Jenn wants me to tell all of you is that when I wieghed myself Friday I weighed 238 lbs. THIS MEANS I HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT!!! YEAH!!!
I go to see Carl again today and so we will have to see what diabolical session he has planned for me today, BUT that is ok because I am looking forward to losing MORE WEIGHT!!!
YEAH!!!
Hugh Hefner called last night and well... you know I just had to say no to that offer! I cant be his new girlfriend cuz I already got an awesome husband! LOL!!!
I AM SO KIDDING YOU GUYS!!!
Actually what Jenn wants me to tell all of you is that when I wieghed myself Friday I weighed 238 lbs. THIS MEANS I HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT!!! YEAH!!!
I go to see Carl again today and so we will have to see what diabolical session he has planned for me today, BUT that is ok because I am looking forward to losing MORE WEIGHT!!!
YEAH!!!
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