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So it is almost the end of the first quarter of this "biggest loser" competition. And I am so excited but at the same time I am also disappointed. He he! I am such an overachiever! I feel like I should be so much further ahead of what I am!
I know, I know, I need to remember to calm down and think of everything that I have accomplished so far. I am down to 223 lbs! I am able to fit into clothes that I have had hanging in my closet for nearly a year! (I LOVE VICTORIA'S SECERT FRENCH CUFF WHITE BUTTON DOWN SHIRTS! They make you look HOT!)
BUT, I still look at this HUGE piece of blubber around my midsection that makes me look like I am about 6 months pregnant! I hate it! What I hate even more is how badly I want to have a tummy tuck and how I don't have the funds to do it! So I am sure there are lots of you out there who think I am horrible for saying that but I know women who have had tummy tucks done who had no business getting them done because they were so freaking skinny in the first place.
I do realize that I have some body issues and I guess that I will have to learn to cope and get over them, but I will keep on plugging away every day doing the little bit that I can. I still have 9 more months of this competition and I plan on seeing it through to the end and I plan on being victorious!
So Jenn and Christine, take note! Your numbers are up because I am going to put you to bed with this weight loss thing because there is NOTHING that I hate more then NOT being in first place! :)
He he! OH, I am also going to get a great pic of myself to show you all how much weight I have lost! I plan on doing that this week! I am so excited for all of you guys to see this pic! I will talk to you later!
Michelle 03-29-2009
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Sunday, March 29, 2009
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Another Small Step
So I have to post this! I WAS SO STOKED LAST THURSDAY! Shilo and I do my measurements every 4th workout. Normally this means once a week. I try to get down to Kody's and workout with her 4 times every week.
I know this isn't for everyone but it is for me. The reason why, is because then I do it! I have such a busy life and lead such a hectic lifestyle that I simply can not trust myself to workout as hard as I should being at home alone! I do get my cardio in, but even that I don't work as hard as I know I should! It is just really easy to say "15 minutes running on the treadmill is better than nothing, right? Even though I know I should be 20 or actually 30 minutes of straight running!"
Yes, I am a slacker...well not really, but in that aspect of my life, I am! I am a very type A personality and I have decided that I am going to clean the floors with my two companions. Which means I am going to take full advantage of Shilo being mean to me and forcing me to do the one more set of calf raises at 210 lbs, even though I truly thought at the time my calves were going to rip my achilles tendon right off of my calcanus bone! (YES, I HAVE DONE IT. 4 sets of 25 to be exact! Go try it, it is not easy!) I want Shilo to tell me to watch my salt! I get pissed, sure, but I also know that she is right and I am wrong, because guess who is fat and who is not! (if you haven't seen our cutie Shilo, then log onto The Edge Magazine website and look on the Healthy Edge Link or check out the March Issue ot the magazine)
I want this because I want to win! Not just so I can rub it in Christine and Jenn's face, but because I am really starting to feel the difference in my life! I can get up easier in the morning! I am sleeping better at night. I can go through the day without thinking I need a caffiene IV at 3 pm or a nap just in order to get up the enegery to make a not so healthy dinner for kids. I want to help inspire others to do this.
So, with that being said. I have been truly working out faithfully with Shilo for the last 5 weeks. Every week we can did my measurements, and every week, I saw hardly anything happening to the scale. I was losing inches though. Actually I lost nearly 6 inches in two weeks on my thighs alone. (I gaineds 2 lbs that week FYI!) So last Thurday, which was my birthday, We did measurements again. AND GUESS WHAT, I was done 5 lbs! Probably more because we weighed at 3 pm which is actually one of the worst times of the day to weigh yourself!
AND EVEN BETTER, I HAD LOST OVER 1% OF BODY FAT! I was down to 223 from 246! WHICH MEANS I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 23 LBS SO FAR!
I am not going to lie, it was hard and I even had a couple of times where I broke down with Shilo and told her I was really scared it wasn't going to happen and so why should I even bother trying. Well she gave me my moment to feel bad and then she told me pity time was over and that we needed to get back to work.
I did! I got back to work and it seems like every sinlge time I go in and work out, I am beating a personal best. I still have a long ways to go, but I have nearly reached my first goal which was to be to 220 by the end of the first quarter.
Well, I have 1 and 1/2 weeks left in this quarter and I am going to make it happen. Because this would just be another small step in reaching my really big goal!
THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT! I love hearing from you guys.
Talk to you soon
Michelle 03-19-2009
I know this isn't for everyone but it is for me. The reason why, is because then I do it! I have such a busy life and lead such a hectic lifestyle that I simply can not trust myself to workout as hard as I should being at home alone! I do get my cardio in, but even that I don't work as hard as I know I should! It is just really easy to say "15 minutes running on the treadmill is better than nothing, right? Even though I know I should be 20 or actually 30 minutes of straight running!"
Yes, I am a slacker...well not really, but in that aspect of my life, I am! I am a very type A personality and I have decided that I am going to clean the floors with my two companions. Which means I am going to take full advantage of Shilo being mean to me and forcing me to do the one more set of calf raises at 210 lbs, even though I truly thought at the time my calves were going to rip my achilles tendon right off of my calcanus bone! (YES, I HAVE DONE IT. 4 sets of 25 to be exact! Go try it, it is not easy!) I want Shilo to tell me to watch my salt! I get pissed, sure, but I also know that she is right and I am wrong, because guess who is fat and who is not! (if you haven't seen our cutie Shilo, then log onto The Edge Magazine website and look on the Healthy Edge Link or check out the March Issue ot the magazine)
I want this because I want to win! Not just so I can rub it in Christine and Jenn's face, but because I am really starting to feel the difference in my life! I can get up easier in the morning! I am sleeping better at night. I can go through the day without thinking I need a caffiene IV at 3 pm or a nap just in order to get up the enegery to make a not so healthy dinner for kids. I want to help inspire others to do this.
So, with that being said. I have been truly working out faithfully with Shilo for the last 5 weeks. Every week we can did my measurements, and every week, I saw hardly anything happening to the scale. I was losing inches though. Actually I lost nearly 6 inches in two weeks on my thighs alone. (I gaineds 2 lbs that week FYI!) So last Thurday, which was my birthday, We did measurements again. AND GUESS WHAT, I was done 5 lbs! Probably more because we weighed at 3 pm which is actually one of the worst times of the day to weigh yourself!
AND EVEN BETTER, I HAD LOST OVER 1% OF BODY FAT! I was down to 223 from 246! WHICH MEANS I HAVE LOST A TOTAL OF 23 LBS SO FAR!
I am not going to lie, it was hard and I even had a couple of times where I broke down with Shilo and told her I was really scared it wasn't going to happen and so why should I even bother trying. Well she gave me my moment to feel bad and then she told me pity time was over and that we needed to get back to work.
I did! I got back to work and it seems like every sinlge time I go in and work out, I am beating a personal best. I still have a long ways to go, but I have nearly reached my first goal which was to be to 220 by the end of the first quarter.
Well, I have 1 and 1/2 weeks left in this quarter and I am going to make it happen. Because this would just be another small step in reaching my really big goal!
THANKS FOR ALL YOUR SUPPORT! I love hearing from you guys.
Talk to you soon
Michelle 03-19-2009
Monday, November 17, 2008
Baby Steps
Ok, so how many of you have seen that movie "What About Bob"? Well if you have then you will totally know what I mean when I say baby steps, if you haven't then I will explain just real quick. Bob is this guy with TONS of fears! (Worse then Monk...almost!) Ya gotta watch USA to know what I am talking about. So Bob drives this one therapist nuts because he is so "needy" and this therapist refers him to another therapist who is basking in the glory of his self help book entitled "Baby Steps".
The gist of the story is that this therapist helps Bob to overcome LOTS of his fears by telling him that anything can be done with baby steps! One small step at a time. Bob becomes obsessed with this nee therapist and way funny things happen and blah, blah, blah...
THE POINT IS THE BABY STEPS!!!!
That was my day today. Seriously, I woke up this morning and was totally depressed and was going to even ditch out on my responsibilities with work (I can, I am kinda the boss!) and even make my husband take my kids to school since he was leaving for work then also. And then my beautiful daughter came running in reminded me she was Top Cat. This is a special honor Neola Elementary does for their students and each week one student from each grade is chosen and they get to display their personal effects in a case in the front hall for all their friends to see. THIS A REALLY HUGE DEAL FOR AN 8-YEAR OLD and I couldn't be the loser mom (another one of my self talk struggles) who wasn't there to help her put her stuff in the case.
AAAAHHHH!!!! THIS MEANS I HAVE 15 MINUTES TO GET DRESSED, DO HAIR, GET MAKE-UP ON AND GET THESE KIDS TO SCHOOL!!!! I have to have my make-up on...please chil', me not have on make-up! HAH! So I do this!
Well, now I am dressed and ready to go to work which I needed to anyways, so the first thing I do is start to PRO-CRAS-TIN-ATE. Can you all say it with me!?!?! Yes, I am a last minute type person WHICH IS NOT GOOD!!!
So I go to the office get on the comp and make an ad and tell Jennifer she has to go and deliver it (see, once again I am pretending to be the boss! :)!) Well since I sent her out to work I am beginning to feel a little more motivated, but only a little...I cut out my first thing in the morning 6 pack of diet coke...I WAS DEAD!!! And man I had a headache, ok so not a 6 pack, but still u know what I mean, I am trying to live healthy here!
Well then I have to take my youngest to preschool and as I drive to town I keep telling myself things like "Well your never going to sell an ad today!" "He He He! You're fat and no one takes you serious anyways" (Yes I say this crap to myself all the time!)
Well you wanna know what, I did sell an ad, and then I came home and made a halfway healthy dinner! (hey man, at least I made dinner, normally it is cold cereal OR deli at Jubilee!)
Ok so there was alot of other stuff that went on too but I don't want to bore you...
THE POINT IS...
I took baby steps and even when I was trying to talk myself out of doing what I needed to do, because I had taken a few small steps and I had the support of family and friends (whether they knew it or not!) I MADE PROGRESS TODAY!!!
It is important to know that when it comes to weight loss this is a lifestyle change, which means even how I structure my day will have to adjust in order for me to be successful.
BUT IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!!!
It has too because I want more from life then self doubt and negative self talk.
AND I GO SEE MY DOC ON THURSDAY FOR MY PHYSICAL. AAAHHH! SO SCARY, I will let you all know what I find out!
Talk to you later.
Michelle 11-17-2008
The gist of the story is that this therapist helps Bob to overcome LOTS of his fears by telling him that anything can be done with baby steps! One small step at a time. Bob becomes obsessed with this nee therapist and way funny things happen and blah, blah, blah...
THE POINT IS THE BABY STEPS!!!!
That was my day today. Seriously, I woke up this morning and was totally depressed and was going to even ditch out on my responsibilities with work (I can, I am kinda the boss!) and even make my husband take my kids to school since he was leaving for work then also. And then my beautiful daughter came running in reminded me she was Top Cat. This is a special honor Neola Elementary does for their students and each week one student from each grade is chosen and they get to display their personal effects in a case in the front hall for all their friends to see. THIS A REALLY HUGE DEAL FOR AN 8-YEAR OLD and I couldn't be the loser mom (another one of my self talk struggles) who wasn't there to help her put her stuff in the case.
AAAAHHHH!!!! THIS MEANS I HAVE 15 MINUTES TO GET DRESSED, DO HAIR, GET MAKE-UP ON AND GET THESE KIDS TO SCHOOL!!!! I have to have my make-up on...please chil', me not have on make-up! HAH! So I do this!
Well, now I am dressed and ready to go to work which I needed to anyways, so the first thing I do is start to PRO-CRAS-TIN-ATE. Can you all say it with me!?!?! Yes, I am a last minute type person WHICH IS NOT GOOD!!!
So I go to the office get on the comp and make an ad and tell Jennifer she has to go and deliver it (see, once again I am pretending to be the boss! :)!) Well since I sent her out to work I am beginning to feel a little more motivated, but only a little...I cut out my first thing in the morning 6 pack of diet coke...I WAS DEAD!!! And man I had a headache, ok so not a 6 pack, but still u know what I mean, I am trying to live healthy here!
Well then I have to take my youngest to preschool and as I drive to town I keep telling myself things like "Well your never going to sell an ad today!" "He He He! You're fat and no one takes you serious anyways" (Yes I say this crap to myself all the time!)
Well you wanna know what, I did sell an ad, and then I came home and made a halfway healthy dinner! (hey man, at least I made dinner, normally it is cold cereal OR deli at Jubilee!)
Ok so there was alot of other stuff that went on too but I don't want to bore you...
THE POINT IS...
I took baby steps and even when I was trying to talk myself out of doing what I needed to do, because I had taken a few small steps and I had the support of family and friends (whether they knew it or not!) I MADE PROGRESS TODAY!!!
It is important to know that when it comes to weight loss this is a lifestyle change, which means even how I structure my day will have to adjust in order for me to be successful.
BUT IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!!!
It has too because I want more from life then self doubt and negative self talk.
AND I GO SEE MY DOC ON THURSDAY FOR MY PHYSICAL. AAAHHH! SO SCARY, I will let you all know what I find out!
Talk to you later.
Michelle 11-17-2008
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