Its a Brain Thing

OK!

So I have had several people comment to me that they thought I needed to talk more about what I am doing to lose weight. I will but let me say why I am so hyped up about the mental side of things.

Your mindset can make or break you! It sucks to admit that sometimes, but it is the truth! Whether you are positive about yourself, or negative about yourself, it will play a HUGE impact on how and what you can accomplish!

I have already told all of you that I have struggled with depression before. A lot of that depression was brought on by the physiological response my body had to being overweight. Extra pounds on your frame can cause things to shift in the chemical make-up of your brain. I swear it is true! I have researched this for myself and while I do not claim to be a medical professional I do stand beside this belief.

Because of this mental barrier that is already in place, it can make losing weight THAT MUCH HARDER!! I do not say this as a reason for you to give up what you are doing, but to encourage to strive for that goal that much more.

My husband and I were talking the other day and I shared with him a comment that someone had told me about myself. We were discussing how because of my tendency to hyperactivity, I intimate people at times. It is not that I mean too, but because I overcompensate my own insecurities with overconfidence! I told him that I had someone call me a "contradiction in terms!" He laughed for a moment and then proceeds to tell me that I am!

Let me explain. I am a type A personality which means I am very driven and motivated and I know what I want, BUT (and this is a big BUT!) I am a self saboteur! Within my own internal psyche I do not feel that I am good enough or worthy enough for what I am working so hard for or striving so diligently to obtain. I told you I was crazy, huh? :) Ok, Ok, you can quit giggling now!

So I have these two VASTLY different emotions rolling around within my head and my heart and it can cause a lot of internal turmoil that I have had to learn to control and master. I believe that to a certain extent, we all experience this same cycle of ups and downs. Especially us women who are blessed with these extra hormones meant for helping us to bear children. That is why I am such a big time talker on the mental side of your weight loss journey.

I have my weeks where I go down and I work out with Shilo and she just kills me! Then I come home and either run on my treadmill or run with my sister AND THEN I GO AND EAT THE ENTIRE CARTON OF MOOSE TRACKS ICE CREAM!!! (Yes, I hate to admit because it is REALLY embarrassing!) Talk about TOTALLY undoing all the hard work that I had just done.

This is the reason that I feel it is SO very, VERY important to have a support group around you. You need to have others to talk to about those emotions and feelings that you are experiencing because more than likely, THEY ARE TOTALLY NORMAL!!!

I just want you to take a deep breath and realize that tomorrow is a new day and YOU CAN ALWAYS START OVER! Blog with us if you are having a hard time with something. Come and feel the support of those in this area who want to see you succeed with your goals! I know I want to see you happy...the question is, DO YOU?

Michelle 4-30-2009

Play Time is Over!

AAAHHH!

So, I got a text tonight from Carl! It was at about 8:30 PM and it said, "Ladies, what time tomorrow?"

How Sweet! LOL!!! I won't lie, I was totally planning on going tomorrow anyways, in fact, Jenn and I were already making plans to be there at 9 AM tomorrow so that we could get a workout in before my dentist appt!

Call me crazy, but I m actually looking forward to the workout! I think since I have been working with Dr. Shurtlif on my thyriod issues, I am FINALLY after all these many years beginning to understand the "rush" that Christine talks about when she says she gets a rush from working out!

THANK GOODNESS! I am excited to weigh myself and see where I am standing weight wise after these long weeks of holiday goodies! I HAVE DONE NOT TO BAD! :) I think I will have still lost weight, but tomorrow we will find out for sure!

I will let you know! Talk to you later and GOOD NIGHT! 6 AM comes early when your up this late!

Michelle 12-28-2008

THE BIG NEWS!

Ok, OK! I will just come right out and tell you!

Hugh Hefner called last night and well... you know I just had to say no to that offer! I cant be his new girlfriend cuz I already got an awesome husband! LOL!!!

I AM SO KIDDING YOU GUYS!!!

Actually what Jenn wants me to tell all of you is that when I wieghed myself Friday I weighed 238 lbs. THIS MEANS I HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT!!! YEAH!!!

I go to see Carl again today and so we will have to see what diabolical session he has planned for me today, BUT that is ok because I am looking forward to losing MORE WEIGHT!!!

YEAH!!!

A NEW MONTH!

A brand new month! I am so excited! I am not so worried about the holiday treats because I have decided to just keep them out of my house!

LOL!!! I know I am mean, but seriously isn't better for my kids too? I figure that we can limit our Christmas meal to something healthy and that will be even better.

AND SANTA IS GOING TO HAVE TO SKIP THE COOKIES IN MY HOUSE!!!!! :) I am sure this is probably sacrilegious in some homes but we figure it won't hurt his waistline either!

So I got to go and workout with Carl again today and he tortured me all over again. YES, I SAID TORTURE!!! He got me to run 20 full minutes! WOW, like I was going to stop with Christine running right next to me. Please she is the one who just had the baby, I can't let her beat me right? LOL! Then we got to go and do bag work. And no, not the bags under my eyes! Just kidding! It was really cool other then fact that my knuckles are killing me now because we forgot to bring gloves or tape for protection. I will not make that mistake again. I got a missing piece of skin on almost every knuckle. OUCH! But it is a good ouch!

I still love Carl...for now! :) Tomorrow may be different when I am hauling magazines around town for delivery! YEAH!!! Make sure to pick yours up off the newsstand ASAP!!! IT IS AWESOME! What til u see the fun things the girls and I put together for you guys this month. AND STILL NO DIET COKE!

Hip - Hip - HOORAY!!!

Michelle 12-1-2008

Slowly But Surely

I have to laugh at myself because first of all I am a first rate goofball, and secondly I am simply a big fat dork! I am doing this weightless thing right AND I DON'T EVEN OWN A SCALE! EWH! Dirty word right? Well when I went and saw the doc the other day he gave me a challenge and that was lose to lose 6 lbs before I came back to see him in 3 three weeks. No, it is not on my own, it is using some of my old weight loss routines that have worked in the past.

well...it didn't start off that great because it was Thursday and you had to be living under a rock to not know that in the Basin they were having numerous midnight showings of Twilight! AND YES I WENT!!! As a matter of a fact the girls and I all went together and even made it a double header by going and seeing the new James Bond flick "Quantum of Solace". WOW I loved that one, it totally motivated me to watch what I was eating there at the movie AND IT DID!!

I am trying really hard to make sure that even when I have a snack it is not a meal of snacks. I need more protein is what my doc said and so I am trying to in add in more protein to what I eat. AND EATING BREAKFAST!!

I am horrible about eating breakfast! I DON'T! But I need too! In fact what he told me was 40%, 40%, 20%. So 40% of your calories for breakfast, 40% of your calories for lunch and then the last 20% for dinner. I am trying REALLY HARD to do this and I think it is working. BUT, I am just going to surprise myself at the doctors in two weeks when I go in for my follow up appt! WISH ME LUCK!!!

Talk to you later!

Michelle 11-23-2008