Baby Steps

Ok, so how many of you have seen that movie "What About Bob"? Well if you have then you will totally know what I mean when I say baby steps, if you haven't then I will explain just real quick. Bob is this guy with TONS of fears! (Worse then Monk...almost!) Ya gotta watch USA to know what I am talking about. So Bob drives this one therapist nuts because he is so "needy" and this therapist refers him to another therapist who is basking in the glory of his self help book entitled "Baby Steps".

The gist of the story is that this therapist helps Bob to overcome LOTS of his fears by telling him that anything can be done with baby steps! One small step at a time. Bob becomes obsessed with this nee therapist and way funny things happen and blah, blah, blah...

THE POINT IS THE BABY STEPS!!!!

That was my day today. Seriously, I woke up this morning and was totally depressed and was going to even ditch out on my responsibilities with work (I can, I am kinda the boss!) and even make my husband take my kids to school since he was leaving for work then also. And then my beautiful daughter came running in reminded me she was Top Cat. This is a special honor Neola Elementary does for their students and each week one student from each grade is chosen and they get to display their personal effects in a case in the front hall for all their friends to see. THIS A REALLY HUGE DEAL FOR AN 8-YEAR OLD and I couldn't be the loser mom (another one of my self talk struggles) who wasn't there to help her put her stuff in the case.

AAAAHHHH!!!! THIS MEANS I HAVE 15 MINUTES TO GET DRESSED, DO HAIR, GET MAKE-UP ON AND GET THESE KIDS TO SCHOOL!!!! I have to have my make-up on...please chil', me not have on make-up! HAH! So I do this!

Well, now I am dressed and ready to go to work which I needed to anyways, so the first thing I do is start to PRO-CRAS-TIN-ATE. Can you all say it with me!?!?! Yes, I am a last minute type person WHICH IS NOT GOOD!!!

So I go to the office get on the comp and make an ad and tell Jennifer she has to go and deliver it (see, once again I am pretending to be the boss! :)!) Well since I sent her out to work I am beginning to feel a little more motivated, but only a little...I cut out my first thing in the morning 6 pack of diet coke...I WAS DEAD!!! And man I had a headache, ok so not a 6 pack, but still u know what I mean, I am trying to live healthy here!

Well then I have to take my youngest to preschool and as I drive to town I keep telling myself things like "Well your never going to sell an ad today!" "He He He! You're fat and no one takes you serious anyways" (Yes I say this crap to myself all the time!)

Well you wanna know what, I did sell an ad, and then I came home and made a halfway healthy dinner! (hey man, at least I made dinner, normally it is cold cereal OR deli at Jubilee!)

Ok so there was alot of other stuff that went on too but I don't want to bore you...

THE POINT IS...

I took baby steps and even when I was trying to talk myself out of doing what I needed to do, because I had taken a few small steps and I had the support of family and friends (whether they knew it or not!) I MADE PROGRESS TODAY!!!

It is important to know that when it comes to weight loss this is a lifestyle change, which means even how I structure my day will have to adjust in order for me to be successful.

BUT IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!!!

It has too because I want more from life then self doubt and negative self talk.

AND I GO SEE MY DOC ON THURSDAY FOR MY PHYSICAL. AAAHHH! SO SCARY, I will let you all know what I find out!

Talk to you later.

Michelle 11-17-2008