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Ok, Ok, so I realize that it is not officially the "New Year" yet, BUT for me it is the beginning of MY New Year!
Jenn and I went and worked out with Carl today. (You have to read her blog! It is a great story!) AND I got to weigh in. Well, I was a little disappointed but then I had to take it all into perspective and I realized that I am still doing good!
So the last time Carl and I weighed, I was down to 238.5 lbs. When I weighed today, I was 237.75 lbs. I am sure that for some of you it sounds dumb to even worry about 3/4 of a lbs. BUT HEY, IT IS WEIGHT THAT I LOST DURING THE CHRISTMAS BREAK!
I mean we had homemade caramel! (Seth makes to die for caramel!) LOTS of candy and cookies and pies at my parent's house, PLUS meats like ham (BAD) and prime rib (EVEN BADDER!). Yes, I know "badder" isn't a word!
I was just excited that I lost a little something and that I did not gain. I watched a thing on TV last night and they were talking about how something like 95% of Americans GAIN weight over the holidays. So I guess if nothing else I can say that once again I am going against the grain and not acting like everyone else! :)
I figure that if I just pretend that this is January 1st then I am done with my sweets and goodies and I can get down to the business of getting fit! I am serious when I say that I am not going to back down from this challenage! I know that Christine and Jennifer are serious about this too! I was WAY proud of Jenn today! We were both dying of heat exhaustion today and even when Jenn was hit with a wave of nausea, SHE CAME BACK AND FINISHED WHAT SHE STARTED!!!
Plus, I decided that I can't go and lift with Jenn anymore! She outlifted me and I just can't handle that! :) I AM SO KIDDING! She really did kick butt today! I am SSSSSOOOOO proud of her!
Tomorrow we go back and see Carl again! I can't wait! :/ I will survive though!
Michelle 12-29-2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Sunday, December 28, 2008
Play Time is Over!
AAAHHH!
So, I got a text tonight from Carl! It was at about 8:30 PM and it said, "Ladies, what time tomorrow?"
How Sweet! LOL!!! I won't lie, I was totally planning on going tomorrow anyways, in fact, Jenn and I were already making plans to be there at 9 AM tomorrow so that we could get a workout in before my dentist appt!
Call me crazy, but I m actually looking forward to the workout! I think since I have been working with Dr. Shurtlif on my thyriod issues, I am FINALLY after all these many years beginning to understand the "rush" that Christine talks about when she says she gets a rush from working out!
THANK GOODNESS! I am excited to weigh myself and see where I am standing weight wise after these long weeks of holiday goodies! I HAVE DONE NOT TO BAD! :) I think I will have still lost weight, but tomorrow we will find out for sure!
I will let you know! Talk to you later and GOOD NIGHT! 6 AM comes early when your up this late!
Michelle 12-28-2008
So, I got a text tonight from Carl! It was at about 8:30 PM and it said, "Ladies, what time tomorrow?"
How Sweet! LOL!!! I won't lie, I was totally planning on going tomorrow anyways, in fact, Jenn and I were already making plans to be there at 9 AM tomorrow so that we could get a workout in before my dentist appt!
Call me crazy, but I m actually looking forward to the workout! I think since I have been working with Dr. Shurtlif on my thyriod issues, I am FINALLY after all these many years beginning to understand the "rush" that Christine talks about when she says she gets a rush from working out!
THANK GOODNESS! I am excited to weigh myself and see where I am standing weight wise after these long weeks of holiday goodies! I HAVE DONE NOT TO BAD! :) I think I will have still lost weight, but tomorrow we will find out for sure!
I will let you know! Talk to you later and GOOD NIGHT! 6 AM comes early when your up this late!
Michelle 12-28-2008
Saturday, December 27, 2008
What Christmas Presents Really Mean!
YEAH!!! I got to go and pick-up my Christmas presents today!
To start off with I had to go and get another load of hay for our horses. It wasn't a ton of hay! (hehe for those of us feeding animals right now you know that this is kind of a joke since we usually do buy hay by the ton!) It was about 35 bales in the back of our truck.these are the smaller 50lbs bales so not overly heavy BUT heavy enough that after throwing the first 15 of them up into the back of the truck to my husband I was breathing hard! It was good! I am not complaining because it is just one more way to get exercise into my life. I told Seth, my husband, that it wasn't the hay that was so bad, it was the fact that we were wading through about a foot of snow in our insulated bibs and snow packers!
After we loaded the hay then we had to take it back to our house and get it unloaded and stacked neatly so that the horses can't get into it and eat it all before we feed it out to them!
THEN CAME THE COOL PART....
I got to go and pick up my Christmas presents! Any guesses what my husband got me? I will give you a hint, it has to do with the hay we went and got! :)
YOU GOT IT RIGHT!!! I GOT TWO NEW HORSES!!! That gives us a total of 6 that we now own and I am so excited! One is a younger dun colored mare who is broke and we have been told does really well in the mountains! The other is a gorgeous paint gelding with some very unusual markings on his belly and legs! He is not broke to ride at this moment, so now I have one more horse we need to break! Seth and I also own his sister who have been working with and who we now have green broke and she is only about 22 months old. She is good and we have been told he is even better because of how much more calm he is then her so I am excited to see how he does!
These two horses were in the fields up here in Hayden where Roosevelt City has its water well. We had to go and catch them up which was a fun challenge within itself because they had no clue who we were and while they really wanted the bucket of grain I had (I was trying to bribe them!) they weren't going to let me get close enough to get that lead rope around their neck! Keep in mind I am in my snow packers and insulated bibs which weigh a person down quite a loy anyways and here I am running around through the fields and ditches in about a foot of snow trying to get the horses to calm down and let me catch them.
It was kinda funny because I had to work with them for about an hour before I could get them both caught up and even then Seth and I had to traipse all over hell and back to get them caught up. I was laughing inside because I thought, "if Carl could only see me now!" It was a testament to me though about why it is so important to be in better shape!
I was glad that I have been working on getting in shape the way I have been these last 6 weeks as it is! I know I would have been able to do it even before I started losing weight and getting back into shape, HOWEVER, I would have gone home and DIED! I would have done nothing for a week after doing everything I did today because it would of fatigued me that much.
I am glad that this is not what happened to me today! I came home and while I will admit that I layed in bed for abouot an hour after we got home, it was more because I was freezing to death and was trying to get warm not because I was exhausted! I also took down my Christmas tree today which was no small feat seeing as our tree was over 10 feet tall and fully decorated. Plus I did laundry, cooked some meals, cleaned up the house, AND worked on some presents for my kids to give their friends next week. My whole point of this story is to say that being fit allows a person to do so much more on a daily basis! I am so glad that I am able to fulfill so many tasks that make up my life as mom, wife, and business owner!
AND TODAY it all started with my Christmas presents!
Michelle 12-27-2008
To start off with I had to go and get another load of hay for our horses. It wasn't a ton of hay! (hehe for those of us feeding animals right now you know that this is kind of a joke since we usually do buy hay by the ton!) It was about 35 bales in the back of our truck.these are the smaller 50lbs bales so not overly heavy BUT heavy enough that after throwing the first 15 of them up into the back of the truck to my husband I was breathing hard! It was good! I am not complaining because it is just one more way to get exercise into my life. I told Seth, my husband, that it wasn't the hay that was so bad, it was the fact that we were wading through about a foot of snow in our insulated bibs and snow packers!
After we loaded the hay then we had to take it back to our house and get it unloaded and stacked neatly so that the horses can't get into it and eat it all before we feed it out to them!
THEN CAME THE COOL PART....
I got to go and pick up my Christmas presents! Any guesses what my husband got me? I will give you a hint, it has to do with the hay we went and got! :)
YOU GOT IT RIGHT!!! I GOT TWO NEW HORSES!!! That gives us a total of 6 that we now own and I am so excited! One is a younger dun colored mare who is broke and we have been told does really well in the mountains! The other is a gorgeous paint gelding with some very unusual markings on his belly and legs! He is not broke to ride at this moment, so now I have one more horse we need to break! Seth and I also own his sister who have been working with and who we now have green broke and she is only about 22 months old. She is good and we have been told he is even better because of how much more calm he is then her so I am excited to see how he does!
These two horses were in the fields up here in Hayden where Roosevelt City has its water well. We had to go and catch them up which was a fun challenge within itself because they had no clue who we were and while they really wanted the bucket of grain I had (I was trying to bribe them!) they weren't going to let me get close enough to get that lead rope around their neck! Keep in mind I am in my snow packers and insulated bibs which weigh a person down quite a loy anyways and here I am running around through the fields and ditches in about a foot of snow trying to get the horses to calm down and let me catch them.
It was kinda funny because I had to work with them for about an hour before I could get them both caught up and even then Seth and I had to traipse all over hell and back to get them caught up. I was laughing inside because I thought, "if Carl could only see me now!" It was a testament to me though about why it is so important to be in better shape!
I was glad that I have been working on getting in shape the way I have been these last 6 weeks as it is! I know I would have been able to do it even before I started losing weight and getting back into shape, HOWEVER, I would have gone home and DIED! I would have done nothing for a week after doing everything I did today because it would of fatigued me that much.
I am glad that this is not what happened to me today! I came home and while I will admit that I layed in bed for abouot an hour after we got home, it was more because I was freezing to death and was trying to get warm not because I was exhausted! I also took down my Christmas tree today which was no small feat seeing as our tree was over 10 feet tall and fully decorated. Plus I did laundry, cooked some meals, cleaned up the house, AND worked on some presents for my kids to give their friends next week. My whole point of this story is to say that being fit allows a person to do so much more on a daily basis! I am so glad that I am able to fulfill so many tasks that make up my life as mom, wife, and business owner!
AND TODAY it all started with my Christmas presents!
Michelle 12-27-2008
Friday, December 26, 2008
HOLIDAYS!
YEAH!!! So how was your Christmas?
MINE...was so much fun! I love being able to spoil my kids. Granted this year was a bit tighter then normal just because of the economy, BUT it was still really good! I must say that I was really excited because it looks like I STILL LOST WEIGHT!
I saw Carl on Mon but then with the holidays I havent been down to the gym since then. BUT, I have still been watching what I eat. (yesterday I splurged a little bit because I ate some cake and some candy!) Ok, so I splurged a little today because I ate a couple of extra hot wings at lunch!
I am not sure what I weigh, BUT I am excited to get back to the gym with Carl and to really start off this New Year the right way!
Michelle 12-26-2008
MINE...was so much fun! I love being able to spoil my kids. Granted this year was a bit tighter then normal just because of the economy, BUT it was still really good! I must say that I was really excited because it looks like I STILL LOST WEIGHT!
I saw Carl on Mon but then with the holidays I havent been down to the gym since then. BUT, I have still been watching what I eat. (yesterday I splurged a little bit because I ate some cake and some candy!) Ok, so I splurged a little today because I ate a couple of extra hot wings at lunch!
I am not sure what I weigh, BUT I am excited to get back to the gym with Carl and to really start off this New Year the right way!
Michelle 12-26-2008
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
NO MU-MUS FOR ME!!
SO...
Today was weigh in day! AND GUESS WHAT....
I LOST FIVE AND HALF MORE POUNDS!!!
YA! Now according to Carl's scale, I weigh 238.5! I am so excited! Actually the big deal is that I got a shirt on today that I have not been able to get around my belly to button up ever since I bought it!
I am horrible that way! I have probably somewhere in the thousands of dollars worth of clothes in my closet or packed away that I keep telling myself, "One day..."
The reason why I do this is because they simply do not have cute fat girl clothes. I am sorry, but they don't! The shirt tails are ALWAYS to short, the chest area is never big enough to accommodate what God gave me in the bra department. It is ridiculous!
I DON'T WANT TO WEAR A MU-MU FOR CHURCH!!!
In all seriousness, I mean I do realize that the front cover of Sports Illustrated Swim Suit Edition will never be for me. I have had several major ligaments torn in my abdomen due to my beautiful children and only a good Doctor will ever fix that, HOWEVER....I can still lose enough weight to look hot in all of the beautiful clothes I have bought over the years but leave hanging in the back of my closet or in a box someplace downstairs!
IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!
IT IS HAPPENING!!
I RAN FOR 25 MINUTES YESTERDAY AND I DIDN'T DIE! Trust me, I thought I was, but I didn't! And I even told Carl that he was going to have to catch me so I didn't fly off the back of the treadmill because I was so TIRED! But I did it!
And he worked me just as hard today and I go back and see him again on Friday!
Seriously you guys! I love the fact that Carl doesn't let me say "NO"! If I start complaining then he tells me, "Where's Your Power?" or "AAAAHHHH". (smart ass anyways!) :) I am so glad though because I know for a fact I would not have done what I have in this contest thus far if it were not for the help of Carl, Dr. Shurtleff, and my friends and family!
I don't have such great will power when it is just me, but I will work really hard to please! AND now that those AWFUL pics are out there for the whole world to see, I GOTTA CHANGE HOW I LOOK RIGHT?
oh and by the way! I AM SO THE WINNER AT NO DIET COKE!!! :) Bow down and worship me girls! (that means you, Jennifer and Christine!) It has been how long now, I don't know, like a month and I seriously think, that this is the only reason that I am able to do the running I am doing right now.
OH AND GET THIS, (yes, it is my blog so I get to brag about myself a little!) WHEN I AM DOING MY RUNNING, it is on 3.5 incline in the treadmill and at 4.5 speed. I am not sure what the incline is equivalent to, but the 4.5 speed means 4.5 miles per hour! YESTERDAY, I did a 13 minute and 27 second mile! I am sure for some that is lame, BUT considering about a month ago I couldn't even do 30 seconds without about passing out...I AM HAPPY! I will admit that I used to run cross country in High School and at the time, I was able to run a 7 min mile. Once I even got down into the 6 minute range. MAN, that seems SO fast compared to what I am doing now but at least I know I can do it right!
Well, I am going to head to bed! I am sore and VERY tired! I have spent the last 3 or 4 nights up VERY late working on the layout and I am DEAD! It has been an awesome week for both exercise and the magazine and we are all so excited to see what happens this next year!
Later
Michelle 12-17-2008
Today was weigh in day! AND GUESS WHAT....
I LOST FIVE AND HALF MORE POUNDS!!!
YA! Now according to Carl's scale, I weigh 238.5! I am so excited! Actually the big deal is that I got a shirt on today that I have not been able to get around my belly to button up ever since I bought it!
I am horrible that way! I have probably somewhere in the thousands of dollars worth of clothes in my closet or packed away that I keep telling myself, "One day..."
The reason why I do this is because they simply do not have cute fat girl clothes. I am sorry, but they don't! The shirt tails are ALWAYS to short, the chest area is never big enough to accommodate what God gave me in the bra department. It is ridiculous!
I DON'T WANT TO WEAR A MU-MU FOR CHURCH!!!
In all seriousness, I mean I do realize that the front cover of Sports Illustrated Swim Suit Edition will never be for me. I have had several major ligaments torn in my abdomen due to my beautiful children and only a good Doctor will ever fix that, HOWEVER....I can still lose enough weight to look hot in all of the beautiful clothes I have bought over the years but leave hanging in the back of my closet or in a box someplace downstairs!
IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!
IT IS HAPPENING!!
I RAN FOR 25 MINUTES YESTERDAY AND I DIDN'T DIE! Trust me, I thought I was, but I didn't! And I even told Carl that he was going to have to catch me so I didn't fly off the back of the treadmill because I was so TIRED! But I did it!
And he worked me just as hard today and I go back and see him again on Friday!
Seriously you guys! I love the fact that Carl doesn't let me say "NO"! If I start complaining then he tells me, "Where's Your Power?" or "AAAAHHHH". (smart ass anyways!) :) I am so glad though because I know for a fact I would not have done what I have in this contest thus far if it were not for the help of Carl, Dr. Shurtleff, and my friends and family!
I don't have such great will power when it is just me, but I will work really hard to please! AND now that those AWFUL pics are out there for the whole world to see, I GOTTA CHANGE HOW I LOOK RIGHT?
oh and by the way! I AM SO THE WINNER AT NO DIET COKE!!! :) Bow down and worship me girls! (that means you, Jennifer and Christine!) It has been how long now, I don't know, like a month and I seriously think, that this is the only reason that I am able to do the running I am doing right now.
OH AND GET THIS, (yes, it is my blog so I get to brag about myself a little!) WHEN I AM DOING MY RUNNING, it is on 3.5 incline in the treadmill and at 4.5 speed. I am not sure what the incline is equivalent to, but the 4.5 speed means 4.5 miles per hour! YESTERDAY, I did a 13 minute and 27 second mile! I am sure for some that is lame, BUT considering about a month ago I couldn't even do 30 seconds without about passing out...I AM HAPPY! I will admit that I used to run cross country in High School and at the time, I was able to run a 7 min mile. Once I even got down into the 6 minute range. MAN, that seems SO fast compared to what I am doing now but at least I know I can do it right!
Well, I am going to head to bed! I am sore and VERY tired! I have spent the last 3 or 4 nights up VERY late working on the layout and I am DEAD! It has been an awesome week for both exercise and the magazine and we are all so excited to see what happens this next year!
Later
Michelle 12-17-2008
Monday, December 15, 2008
Mondays...UGH~
Ok, So a while ago I said that I loved Mondays, and I still do, except for the fact that Mondays are now my....(GASP!)...dreaded weighing in day with Carl! UGH!
Actually, I feel really bad because I didn't get to go and work out with Carl today. After a meeting I had this morning, my 4 year-old started to not just complain, but cry profusely that his ear was hurting. I knew that there was no way I could feel good about me dragging him to the gym and working out with him being in such pain. That is not what a good mom does.
Instead I went home and got him settled into watching a movie and then I set about the (GASP!) wonderful task of cleaning my office. Ok so I will admit that I am not a dirty person, but I am a cluttered person. I am a classic stacker! I can have piles and piles and piles of paper and for the most part, I know where things are. Most of it is my fault because I simply need to get better organizational tools, like filing cabinets and book case and a bigger desk, but the other part of it is that I am a procrastinator and I will wait until the last minute on somethings when I really shouldn't! BUT, at least my going through stacks of paper and organizing things was productive and NOT eating candy. (today was stressful at work!)
BUT GUESS WHAT!!! I am going in tomorrow to work out with Carl and then again on Wed and hopefully Thursday too! I am doing SSSSOOOO good at avoiding those Christmas treats and I can not wait to see what to see how much weight I am hopefuly gonna lose!
WISH ME LUCK YOU GUYS!!! I am nervous and scared, but I am hoping that I get to see those numbers go DOWN!!!
YEAH!!!
Actually, I feel really bad because I didn't get to go and work out with Carl today. After a meeting I had this morning, my 4 year-old started to not just complain, but cry profusely that his ear was hurting. I knew that there was no way I could feel good about me dragging him to the gym and working out with him being in such pain. That is not what a good mom does.
Instead I went home and got him settled into watching a movie and then I set about the (GASP!) wonderful task of cleaning my office. Ok so I will admit that I am not a dirty person, but I am a cluttered person. I am a classic stacker! I can have piles and piles and piles of paper and for the most part, I know where things are. Most of it is my fault because I simply need to get better organizational tools, like filing cabinets and book case and a bigger desk, but the other part of it is that I am a procrastinator and I will wait until the last minute on somethings when I really shouldn't! BUT, at least my going through stacks of paper and organizing things was productive and NOT eating candy. (today was stressful at work!)
BUT GUESS WHAT!!! I am going in tomorrow to work out with Carl and then again on Wed and hopefully Thursday too! I am doing SSSSOOOO good at avoiding those Christmas treats and I can not wait to see what to see how much weight I am hopefuly gonna lose!
WISH ME LUCK YOU GUYS!!! I am nervous and scared, but I am hoping that I get to see those numbers go DOWN!!!
YEAH!!!
Thursday, December 11, 2008
A little bit of insight...
Ok, So I went in today and got to see Dr. Shurtlef again. It was good! It also sucked because even with the counting calories and excercising, I only lost 2 pounds! Ok, so my earlier excitement of thing I had lost a bunch of wieght was swiftly shot in the ass and quickly deflated!
So the moral of this story is...
ONLY WEIGH ON ONE SCALE!!!! Or two actually, the one with your doctor and the one at the gym because they can vary!
So Dr. Shurtleff did tell me he was very proud of me and the fact that I actually lost weight over the Thanksgiving weekend. He said most patients are lucky to maintain because all those holiday treats are hard to resist! AND THEY ARE FOR ME TOO!!!
I told him I had a couple of breakdowns where I had indulged in candy, BUT I was still excercising and NOT DRINKING DIET COKE!!!
He said he was proud of me! YEAH!!
I must also say that even though I broke down and ate that candy, it was like a handful of M & M's instead of the whole 2lbs bag. (yes, I have done that before!) Also when I did do these things, I made myself work extra on my treadmill!
It is coming, I know it is. I had Carl, Jenn, and Christine tell me that they can see it in my face that I am losing weight. I am so glad, I want this SSSSOOOO bad! I really am trying so hard to be good with how I eat and excercise. It is hard but like I told Carl last night,
NO PAIN, NO GAIN...RIGHT?
Ok so to prove how serious I am about doing this, check out my knuckles! This is from using the punching bag. AND YES, I HAD MY KNUCKLES WRAPPED!!! I was seriously trying to hit that hard! THANKS CARL FOR KICKING MY BUTT INTO SHAPE!!!
These are my knuckles after last night's bout with the punching bag! I know they are kinda gross! BUT WORTH IT!!!
These are my knuckles after last night's bout with the punching bag! I know they are kinda gross! BUT WORTH IT!!!Monday, December 8, 2008
Weigh Ins
Ok, So I have to admit today was very bittersweet for me! I went and got to work out with Carl today right! It was great and I can already tell I am going to be sore tomorrow! Well, I weighed in also, just like Jenn!
I WAS SO DEPRESSED!!!
When I weighed in with Carl, the scale told me I weighed 244. I am going to chalk this massively disappointing event to the fact that this is not the scale I normally weigh myself on and so there is a still a chance that I have lost the weight that I thought I did last Fri when I had a scale tell me that I weighed only 238!
Here is the hard part though...
I was so deflated about this, that I totally came home and ate candy! Ok, so not a ton of candy, but I am sure I are enough that all the work I did today is probably null and void!
I seriously feel like a loser right now! Hopefully it is just PMS and I will be over it in a week! LOL!!!
We will see. I go back and see Dr. Shurtleff on Thursday and hopefully his scale has better news for me then the one at the gym today!!
I WAS SO DEPRESSED!!!
When I weighed in with Carl, the scale told me I weighed 244. I am going to chalk this massively disappointing event to the fact that this is not the scale I normally weigh myself on and so there is a still a chance that I have lost the weight that I thought I did last Fri when I had a scale tell me that I weighed only 238!
Here is the hard part though...
I was so deflated about this, that I totally came home and ate candy! Ok, so not a ton of candy, but I am sure I are enough that all the work I did today is probably null and void!
I seriously feel like a loser right now! Hopefully it is just PMS and I will be over it in a week! LOL!!!
We will see. I go back and see Dr. Shurtleff on Thursday and hopefully his scale has better news for me then the one at the gym today!!
Sunday, December 7, 2008
THE BIG NEWS!
Ok, OK! I will just come right out and tell you!
Hugh Hefner called last night and well... you know I just had to say no to that offer! I cant be his new girlfriend cuz I already got an awesome husband! LOL!!!
I AM SO KIDDING YOU GUYS!!!
Actually what Jenn wants me to tell all of you is that when I wieghed myself Friday I weighed 238 lbs. THIS MEANS I HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT!!! YEAH!!!
I go to see Carl again today and so we will have to see what diabolical session he has planned for me today, BUT that is ok because I am looking forward to losing MORE WEIGHT!!!
YEAH!!!
Hugh Hefner called last night and well... you know I just had to say no to that offer! I cant be his new girlfriend cuz I already got an awesome husband! LOL!!!
I AM SO KIDDING YOU GUYS!!!
Actually what Jenn wants me to tell all of you is that when I wieghed myself Friday I weighed 238 lbs. THIS MEANS I HAVE LOST SOME WEIGHT!!! YEAH!!!
I go to see Carl again today and so we will have to see what diabolical session he has planned for me today, BUT that is ok because I am looking forward to losing MORE WEIGHT!!!
YEAH!!!
Thursday, December 4, 2008
LUNCH MUNCHIES
Ok, so I was good at lunch! LOL!! I totally had a salad with BAKED CHICKEN, and water!! YEAH FOR ME...
EXCEPT,
GUESS WHAT...
I AM DYING RIGHT NOW!!!
I want a diet coke SSSSSSOOOOOO BAD! I am not going to cave in though. I have way worse habits then diet coke, but if I can over come them one at a time, then I think that I will be much better off!
AND YES,
CARL GAVE ME THAT LOOK TOO! I didn't do it! :)!!!
Michelle 12-4-2008
EXCEPT,
GUESS WHAT...
I AM DYING RIGHT NOW!!!
I want a diet coke SSSSSSOOOOOO BAD! I am not going to cave in though. I have way worse habits then diet coke, but if I can over come them one at a time, then I think that I will be much better off!
AND YES,
CARL GAVE ME THAT LOOK TOO! I didn't do it! :)!!!
Michelle 12-4-2008
Monday, December 1, 2008
A NEW MONTH!
A brand new month! I am so excited! I am not so worried about the holiday treats because I have decided to just keep them out of my house!
LOL!!! I know I am mean, but seriously isn't better for my kids too? I figure that we can limit our Christmas meal to something healthy and that will be even better.
AND SANTA IS GOING TO HAVE TO SKIP THE COOKIES IN MY HOUSE!!!!! :) I am sure this is probably sacrilegious in some homes but we figure it won't hurt his waistline either!
So I got to go and workout with Carl again today and he tortured me all over again. YES, I SAID TORTURE!!! He got me to run 20 full minutes! WOW, like I was going to stop with Christine running right next to me. Please she is the one who just had the baby, I can't let her beat me right? LOL! Then we got to go and do bag work. And no, not the bags under my eyes! Just kidding! It was really cool other then fact that my knuckles are killing me now because we forgot to bring gloves or tape for protection. I will not make that mistake again. I got a missing piece of skin on almost every knuckle. OUCH! But it is a good ouch!
I still love Carl...for now! :) Tomorrow may be different when I am hauling magazines around town for delivery! YEAH!!! Make sure to pick yours up off the newsstand ASAP!!! IT IS AWESOME! What til u see the fun things the girls and I put together for you guys this month. AND STILL NO DIET COKE!
Hip - Hip - HOORAY!!!
Michelle 12-1-2008
LOL!!! I know I am mean, but seriously isn't better for my kids too? I figure that we can limit our Christmas meal to something healthy and that will be even better.
AND SANTA IS GOING TO HAVE TO SKIP THE COOKIES IN MY HOUSE!!!!! :) I am sure this is probably sacrilegious in some homes but we figure it won't hurt his waistline either!
So I got to go and workout with Carl again today and he tortured me all over again. YES, I SAID TORTURE!!! He got me to run 20 full minutes! WOW, like I was going to stop with Christine running right next to me. Please she is the one who just had the baby, I can't let her beat me right? LOL! Then we got to go and do bag work. And no, not the bags under my eyes! Just kidding! It was really cool other then fact that my knuckles are killing me now because we forgot to bring gloves or tape for protection. I will not make that mistake again. I got a missing piece of skin on almost every knuckle. OUCH! But it is a good ouch!
I still love Carl...for now! :) Tomorrow may be different when I am hauling magazines around town for delivery! YEAH!!! Make sure to pick yours up off the newsstand ASAP!!! IT IS AWESOME! What til u see the fun things the girls and I put together for you guys this month. AND STILL NO DIET COKE!
Hip - Hip - HOORAY!!!
Michelle 12-1-2008
Sunday, November 30, 2008
HERE THEY ARE!
AAAHHHH!!!! These are so scary, but here they are in all their not so shiny glory! 
Ok so here are my starting stats as of the day these pics were taken which was Monday, November 24, 2008:
Weight: 246 lbs.
Height: 5' 7"
Waist: 48 inches
Hips: 50 inches
Bicep: 13 inches
Upper Thigh: 26 inches
Neck: 14.5 inches
Chest (under breasts): 42 inches
Overarm: 57 inches
Ok, So I am sure for many of you, there is some overwhelming feelings of yuckiness in your throat right now! AND BY ALL MEANS YOU SHOULD BE GROSSED OUT!
These pics are nasty and this is why I want to change my
lifestyle! I AM NOT ON A DIET! I AM CHANGING MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD AND WITH EXERCISE!! This is a very important thing to keep in mind. Carl told us that the word "diet" is off limits for us to say and I totally agree!
We need to remember that this is a change I want to make on a long term level. I mean I have committed the next 12 months MINIMUM to making this change and losing the weight. This is a true commitment on my part because I want to have more for my family and I by being healthy enough to not have to depend on caffeine for my energy.
I want to be able to go hiking with my kids, running and playing paintball with my kids, swimming with my kids! Do you know that I have not been to a public swimming pool in a bathing suit in over 10 years! No, I am not lying! And the reason why is
because I am so embarrassed about how I look and feel and my kids are getting old enough that they are picking up on my dislike of my own body.
This makes me think about the messages I am sending out to my kids. I make sure I keep my children VERY active in a lot of activities because I do not want them to develop the lazy habits that I have taken up. I want them to stay healthy and not increase their chance of heart disease and diabetes which runs in my family already! I want our family to develop a heritage of choosing to stay healthy and fit and not just luck into it. Most people who are thin are that way by choice.
You know it is more then just thin, it is healthy! I don't care if they are thin per say as long as they are healthy! I am not healthy at this point. Oh, I may have great cholesterol and blood pressure FOR NOW, but what about next year, or in 5 years, or in 10 years? What about then? With my weight like it is now, I am a ticking time bomb for any number of things to go wrong!
Sorry, not trying to preach! Everyone has their own reason for doing what they do and for me, FOOD was my comfort! I ate because I felt that this was all I was able to control in my life at times! I am beginning more then just a weight loss routine, I am on a journey of self discovery and for me that is the most important part! Oh, do not mistake, I still have issues with food and why I choose to eat the amounts that I do, BUT at least I am taking those steps to work it out AND CARL PARKER IS A HUGE PART OF THAT!!! Just like my nutrionist Joyce, and my doctor, Dr. Shaun Shertluff!!
I WANT TO BE THE BEST MOM AND WIFE I CAN POSSIBLY BE!!! And this is what will help me to do that! I look forward to sharing more with you all and PLEASE POST YOUR COMMENTS!! But please keep them positive ok! This was and is really hard for me to do...putting the pictures out that is! It is really scary and I know that I am not the fittest person you have ever seen which is why I am doing this and I can only hope that I am able to inspire some of you to live a more healthy lifestyle too!
Michelle 11-30-2008
Ok so here are my starting stats as of the day these pics were taken which was Monday, November 24, 2008:
Weight: 246 lbs.
Height: 5' 7"
Waist: 48 inches
Hips: 50 inches
Bicep: 13 inches
Upper Thigh: 26 inches
Neck: 14.5 inches
Chest (under breasts): 42 inches
Overarm: 57 inches
Ok, So I am sure for many of you, there is some overwhelming feelings of yuckiness in your throat right now! AND BY ALL MEANS YOU SHOULD BE GROSSED OUT!
These pics are nasty and this is why I want to change my
lifestyle! I AM NOT ON A DIET! I AM CHANGING MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD AND WITH EXERCISE!! This is a very important thing to keep in mind. Carl told us that the word "diet" is off limits for us to say and I totally agree!We need to remember that this is a change I want to make on a long term level. I mean I have committed the next 12 months MINIMUM to making this change and losing the weight. This is a true commitment on my part because I want to have more for my family and I by being healthy enough to not have to depend on caffeine for my energy.
I want to be able to go hiking with my kids, running and playing paintball with my kids, swimming with my kids! Do you know that I have not been to a public swimming pool in a bathing suit in over 10 years! No, I am not lying! And the reason why is
because I am so embarrassed about how I look and feel and my kids are getting old enough that they are picking up on my dislike of my own body.
This makes me think about the messages I am sending out to my kids. I make sure I keep my children VERY active in a lot of activities because I do not want them to develop the lazy habits that I have taken up. I want them to stay healthy and not increase their chance of heart disease and diabetes which runs in my family already! I want our family to develop a heritage of choosing to stay healthy and fit and not just luck into it. Most people who are thin are that way by choice.
You know it is more then just thin, it is healthy! I don't care if they are thin per say as long as they are healthy! I am not healthy at this point. Oh, I may have great cholesterol and blood pressure FOR NOW, but what about next year, or in 5 years, or in 10 years? What about then? With my weight like it is now, I am a ticking time bomb for any number of things to go wrong!
Sorry, not trying to preach! Everyone has their own reason for doing what they do and for me, FOOD was my comfort! I ate because I felt that this was all I was able to control in my life at times! I am beginning more then just a weight loss routine, I am on a journey of self discovery and for me that is the most important part! Oh, do not mistake, I still have issues with food and why I choose to eat the amounts that I do, BUT at least I am taking those steps to work it out AND CARL PARKER IS A HUGE PART OF THAT!!! Just like my nutrionist Joyce, and my doctor, Dr. Shaun Shertluff!!
I WANT TO BE THE BEST MOM AND WIFE I CAN POSSIBLY BE!!! And this is what will help me to do that! I look forward to sharing more with you all and PLEASE POST YOUR COMMENTS!! But please keep them positive ok! This was and is really hard for me to do...putting the pictures out that is! It is really scary and I know that I am not the fittest person you have ever seen which is why I am doing this and I can only hope that I am able to inspire some of you to live a more healthy lifestyle too!
Michelle 11-30-2008
CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?!?
Well, it is the day after my first workout with Carl! OUCH!!! And you know what sucks? IT ALWAYS HURTS WORSE ON THE SECOND DAY! LOL!!!
I have to totally laugh though because when it came to my upper body strength, I truly thought I was pretty ok. HAHAHAHA!!! That was until Carl decided we needed to do upper body training on Sat that I was suddenly and most rudely was brought out of my wonderful cloud of ignorance as to what my strength IS NOT! He kicked my butt! I AM CRYING A LOT RIGHT NOW!!! I am sure you are all laughing and that is totally fine because I do realize that this pain is going to help me to shape my body into something sexy! AND YES, I WANT TO BE SEXY!!! LOL!!
It was a really amazing week overall though. Other then today, I have made a real effort (and succeeded) at making sure I exercised 6 days out of 7. So understand that not everyone has to do that, but I am really serious about wanting to lose weight and look good for this upcoming summer season when my girlfriends and I are able to take our husbands to Vegas and have a well deserved trip.
It is overall really nice to have this ache back in my muscles because I know that in the end it means that I will be stronger and healthier AND WILL BE ABLE TO HIKE UP AND DOWN THE MOUNTAIN ON THE ELK HUNT WITHOUT DYING!!!
I am supposed to meet with Carl again tomorrow and I am a bit apprehensive because I worked out so hard this last time that I was literally sick to my stomach last night. BUT it definitely made me not want to eat dessert after dinner last night because I knew I would have to do extra work to take those pounds off.
Oh, don't worry, I caved today and ate two desserts to make up for yesterday! BUT, at least I have been off the diet coke for almost a week now. That is amazing and probably another BIG reason why I am getting sick! LOL!!! My poor body is just trying to flush all of this crap out of its system!
This week I lost 4 lbs. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!?!?!? I am so excited but so nervous about whether or not I will be able to keep it up (the losing weight part!) I will never miss an appt with Carl and I will see him at least 3 times per week because this is how my level of commitment goes!
I KNOW WE ALL CAN DO IT TOGETHER!!!
Michelle 11-30-2008
I have to totally laugh though because when it came to my upper body strength, I truly thought I was pretty ok. HAHAHAHA!!! That was until Carl decided we needed to do upper body training on Sat that I was suddenly and most rudely was brought out of my wonderful cloud of ignorance as to what my strength IS NOT! He kicked my butt! I AM CRYING A LOT RIGHT NOW!!! I am sure you are all laughing and that is totally fine because I do realize that this pain is going to help me to shape my body into something sexy! AND YES, I WANT TO BE SEXY!!! LOL!!
It was a really amazing week overall though. Other then today, I have made a real effort (and succeeded) at making sure I exercised 6 days out of 7. So understand that not everyone has to do that, but I am really serious about wanting to lose weight and look good for this upcoming summer season when my girlfriends and I are able to take our husbands to Vegas and have a well deserved trip.
It is overall really nice to have this ache back in my muscles because I know that in the end it means that I will be stronger and healthier AND WILL BE ABLE TO HIKE UP AND DOWN THE MOUNTAIN ON THE ELK HUNT WITHOUT DYING!!!
I am supposed to meet with Carl again tomorrow and I am a bit apprehensive because I worked out so hard this last time that I was literally sick to my stomach last night. BUT it definitely made me not want to eat dessert after dinner last night because I knew I would have to do extra work to take those pounds off.
Oh, don't worry, I caved today and ate two desserts to make up for yesterday! BUT, at least I have been off the diet coke for almost a week now. That is amazing and probably another BIG reason why I am getting sick! LOL!!! My poor body is just trying to flush all of this crap out of its system!
This week I lost 4 lbs. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT!?!?!? I am so excited but so nervous about whether or not I will be able to keep it up (the losing weight part!) I will never miss an appt with Carl and I will see him at least 3 times per week because this is how my level of commitment goes!
I KNOW WE ALL CAN DO IT TOGETHER!!!
Michelle 11-30-2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Victories!
So I am not even sure what to name this blog! I am just going to write and put down a few of my thoughts for today.
SO my husband and I went and looked at a couple of new horses that we are going to be getting and I am so excited. Of course the weather is getting cold and I am finding excuses to not ride as much. LOL!! I have hardly rode at all since the elk hunt. Mostly because I feel bad for my mare. SHe is older and I am heavy and I feel bad about making her haul me around.
I am excited though because on Fri I get to meet with Carl again. It makes me nervous too though. He told me yesterday how the bag and I were going to be really good friends...translated this means WORK! :) I am OK with that though. Anyone who knows me can verify the fact that I am a hard worker. That is what it is going to take to get my self out of this ugly situation too, HARD WORK. I have never backed down from a challenage and this is no exception.
I am sure you will hear me complain LOTS MORE before this is over, but understand that just because I am complaining, it does not mean that I am not working!
AND GUESS WHAT...
NO SODAS AT ALL FOR OVER 24 HOURS!!! ACTUALLY 48 HOURS now that I think about it! YEAH!!! Small victories equal large successes, right? I hope so! I need a victory! I need a success!
Michelle 11-26-2008
SO my husband and I went and looked at a couple of new horses that we are going to be getting and I am so excited. Of course the weather is getting cold and I am finding excuses to not ride as much. LOL!! I have hardly rode at all since the elk hunt. Mostly because I feel bad for my mare. SHe is older and I am heavy and I feel bad about making her haul me around.
I am excited though because on Fri I get to meet with Carl again. It makes me nervous too though. He told me yesterday how the bag and I were going to be really good friends...translated this means WORK! :) I am OK with that though. Anyone who knows me can verify the fact that I am a hard worker. That is what it is going to take to get my self out of this ugly situation too, HARD WORK. I have never backed down from a challenage and this is no exception.
I am sure you will hear me complain LOTS MORE before this is over, but understand that just because I am complaining, it does not mean that I am not working!
AND GUESS WHAT...
NO SODAS AT ALL FOR OVER 24 HOURS!!! ACTUALLY 48 HOURS now that I think about it! YEAH!!! Small victories equal large successes, right? I hope so! I need a victory! I need a success!
Michelle 11-26-2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
It can only be described as PAIN...
AAAHHH!!!! I HURT!!! LOL!! Quit laughing all of you! You don't even know what I am saying is hurting. No, it is not my legs after my work-out yesterday, well ok maybe those hurt too. And they will only hurt worse because I also got in a good bowflex routine today! I CAN SAY "SORE" because that is exactly what I will be tomorrow!
ACTUALLY, it was seeing MY VERY LARGE MID-SECTION in that very small camera screen, AND realizing that it was only going to look worse when I actually saw it on the computer screen and that made my heart and soul really hurt!
I also got to meet with Carl Parker today! Can I tell you WOW!! This guy is awesome. He is the fitness consultant/life coach that is going to be helping the girls and I on our journey of self discovery! I am sure you are laughing as you read this, but it is really the truth. If you ever have the chance to work with Carl, I want you to scoop it up and relish every moment because he is so worth it when it comes to his insights. And can you say in shape! I can and this makes me glad because he explained some of his own struggles he has been dealing with over the last few months and it makes me feel like there is hope for me as I work towards a healthier me!
Ok enough of the gooshy stuff because now I have to tell you why I hate him! LOL!!! HE SAID NO MORE DIET COKE!!! AAAHHH!!!! No more diet coke, doesn't he understand that diet coke is ambrosia, it the sweet nectar of the gods and goddesses of which I am one, aren't I? LOL!!! He challenged me to just be tough and trust him, hhhmmm, do I dare? Well, at this point in time, YES!!! If I want anything to change in my life, then I have to trust him and I will and we meet for the first time on Fri which is going to be VERY enlightening!
And guess what else, I should be posting my "before" pics here shortly. You guys have no idea how very scared I am of doing this, BUT I AM!!! I am facing my big ,fat fears (hehe, it was a pun!) and I am going to shed my insecurities in order to live a healthier and happier life!
THANKS CARL, THANKS CHRISTINE, AND THANKS JENNIFER!!! (After all Jenn, it is your fault we started this! :) )
Michelle 11-25-2008
ACTUALLY, it was seeing MY VERY LARGE MID-SECTION in that very small camera screen, AND realizing that it was only going to look worse when I actually saw it on the computer screen and that made my heart and soul really hurt!
I also got to meet with Carl Parker today! Can I tell you WOW!! This guy is awesome. He is the fitness consultant/life coach that is going to be helping the girls and I on our journey of self discovery! I am sure you are laughing as you read this, but it is really the truth. If you ever have the chance to work with Carl, I want you to scoop it up and relish every moment because he is so worth it when it comes to his insights. And can you say in shape! I can and this makes me glad because he explained some of his own struggles he has been dealing with over the last few months and it makes me feel like there is hope for me as I work towards a healthier me!
Ok enough of the gooshy stuff because now I have to tell you why I hate him! LOL!!! HE SAID NO MORE DIET COKE!!! AAAHHH!!!! No more diet coke, doesn't he understand that diet coke is ambrosia, it the sweet nectar of the gods and goddesses of which I am one, aren't I? LOL!!! He challenged me to just be tough and trust him, hhhmmm, do I dare? Well, at this point in time, YES!!! If I want anything to change in my life, then I have to trust him and I will and we meet for the first time on Fri which is going to be VERY enlightening!
And guess what else, I should be posting my "before" pics here shortly. You guys have no idea how very scared I am of doing this, BUT I AM!!! I am facing my big ,fat fears (hehe, it was a pun!) and I am going to shed my insecurities in order to live a healthier and happier life!
THANKS CARL, THANKS CHRISTINE, AND THANKS JENNIFER!!! (After all Jenn, it is your fault we started this! :) )
Michelle 11-25-2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Monday Morning Bliss
Monday mornings are so divine don't you think? I love them! You have had all weekend to psych yourself up for what you are going to do the next week and you know that it will all begin on a Monday morning!
Of course this might also be a way of procrastinating and trying to put off until tomorrow those things that you really should be doing today! I am the QUEEN of procrastination! Oh, do not mistake me...I still get A LOT of stuff done but I am also really good at putting it off.
So this morning my alarm goes off at 6 AM like it always does, and like I always do, I put my phone on silent (this is also my alarm clock cuz I use a Blackberry) so I don't have to listen to my phone chime as all my emails come rolling in from the night while my phone was turned off. Like always, I turned on my TV to Fox 13 and start to watch the news, and like always, I tell myself I need to roll my big set of hind quarters out of bed and do something...you know, like work out! :)
So this has been my daily routine for nearly 2 years now. At one time I did get up at 5 AM every morning and went walking with two of my friends. We would walk in the dark, along side the road every weekday morning for a distance of about 4 miles. And it was a good walk, I mean we had some REALLY big hills we walked up.
So these last two weeks I have been, in essence, psyching myself up for today to get out of bed and exercise on my treadmill before I get my kids up for school. Any guesses as to what I did?
Oh Come On...
I Really Want You to Guess....
Ok....
Here is what I did...
NOTHING!!!
Yes, You read that right, a big fat nothing! In fact I am going to tell you my dirty seceret for today...I made my husband take the kids to school. (normally I do that so I can get myself going in the morning!) AND THEN I LAID IN BED AND ATE 6 HUGE CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES!!! That is AWFUL!!! Actually, I felt really bad about doing that so I immediately got out of bed and by the way, I hardly EVER sleep in. I am normally out of bed and up doing stuff by 7 AM every day, not just on school days! So at 9:30 AM today I went for a mile and a half on my treadmill. I even ran! I went in 2 minute intervals of running and even changed up the incline on my treadmill to give myself an even better work out. I did this for 25 minutes of off and on running and walking and varying my speeds and incline but the whole time making sure I was keeping my heart rate in my target range.
Hopefully I will do this again tomorrow...Only without the cookies and stuff!
Michelle 11-24-2008
Of course this might also be a way of procrastinating and trying to put off until tomorrow those things that you really should be doing today! I am the QUEEN of procrastination! Oh, do not mistake me...I still get A LOT of stuff done but I am also really good at putting it off.
So this morning my alarm goes off at 6 AM like it always does, and like I always do, I put my phone on silent (this is also my alarm clock cuz I use a Blackberry) so I don't have to listen to my phone chime as all my emails come rolling in from the night while my phone was turned off. Like always, I turned on my TV to Fox 13 and start to watch the news, and like always, I tell myself I need to roll my big set of hind quarters out of bed and do something...you know, like work out! :)
So this has been my daily routine for nearly 2 years now. At one time I did get up at 5 AM every morning and went walking with two of my friends. We would walk in the dark, along side the road every weekday morning for a distance of about 4 miles. And it was a good walk, I mean we had some REALLY big hills we walked up.
So these last two weeks I have been, in essence, psyching myself up for today to get out of bed and exercise on my treadmill before I get my kids up for school. Any guesses as to what I did?
Oh Come On...
I Really Want You to Guess....
Ok....
Here is what I did...
NOTHING!!!
Yes, You read that right, a big fat nothing! In fact I am going to tell you my dirty seceret for today...I made my husband take the kids to school. (normally I do that so I can get myself going in the morning!) AND THEN I LAID IN BED AND ATE 6 HUGE CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES!!! That is AWFUL!!! Actually, I felt really bad about doing that so I immediately got out of bed and by the way, I hardly EVER sleep in. I am normally out of bed and up doing stuff by 7 AM every day, not just on school days! So at 9:30 AM today I went for a mile and a half on my treadmill. I even ran! I went in 2 minute intervals of running and even changed up the incline on my treadmill to give myself an even better work out. I did this for 25 minutes of off and on running and walking and varying my speeds and incline but the whole time making sure I was keeping my heart rate in my target range.
Hopefully I will do this again tomorrow...Only without the cookies and stuff!
Michelle 11-24-2008
Sunday, November 23, 2008
Slowly But Surely
I have to laugh at myself because first of all I am a first rate goofball, and secondly I am simply a big fat dork! I am doing this weightless thing right AND I DON'T EVEN OWN A SCALE! EWH! Dirty word right? Well when I went and saw the doc the other day he gave me a challenge and that was lose to lose 6 lbs before I came back to see him in 3 three weeks. No, it is not on my own, it is using some of my old weight loss routines that have worked in the past.
well...it didn't start off that great because it was Thursday and you had to be living under a rock to not know that in the Basin they were having numerous midnight showings of Twilight! AND YES I WENT!!! As a matter of a fact the girls and I all went together and even made it a double header by going and seeing the new James Bond flick "Quantum of Solace". WOW I loved that one, it totally motivated me to watch what I was eating there at the movie AND IT DID!!
I am trying really hard to make sure that even when I have a snack it is not a meal of snacks. I need more protein is what my doc said and so I am trying to in add in more protein to what I eat. AND EATING BREAKFAST!!
I am horrible about eating breakfast! I DON'T! But I need too! In fact what he told me was 40%, 40%, 20%. So 40% of your calories for breakfast, 40% of your calories for lunch and then the last 20% for dinner. I am trying REALLY HARD to do this and I think it is working. BUT, I am just going to surprise myself at the doctors in two weeks when I go in for my follow up appt! WISH ME LUCK!!!
Talk to you later!
Michelle 11-23-2008
well...it didn't start off that great because it was Thursday and you had to be living under a rock to not know that in the Basin they were having numerous midnight showings of Twilight! AND YES I WENT!!! As a matter of a fact the girls and I all went together and even made it a double header by going and seeing the new James Bond flick "Quantum of Solace". WOW I loved that one, it totally motivated me to watch what I was eating there at the movie AND IT DID!!
I am trying really hard to make sure that even when I have a snack it is not a meal of snacks. I need more protein is what my doc said and so I am trying to in add in more protein to what I eat. AND EATING BREAKFAST!!
I am horrible about eating breakfast! I DON'T! But I need too! In fact what he told me was 40%, 40%, 20%. So 40% of your calories for breakfast, 40% of your calories for lunch and then the last 20% for dinner. I am trying REALLY HARD to do this and I think it is working. BUT, I am just going to surprise myself at the doctors in two weeks when I go in for my follow up appt! WISH ME LUCK!!!
Talk to you later!
Michelle 11-23-2008
Thursday, November 20, 2008
Real Life
I AM SO EXCITED!!! I meet with my doctor today, who by the way IS TOTALLY AWESOME! His name is Shaun Shurtlef and he practices family medicine in Vernal at Ashley Regional Medical Center. He is a total riot to talk to AND he is really good at helping people lose weight and KEEP IT OFF!
So I went in today and got my physical. UGH...he is talking about a colonoscopy, which totally makes me feel old if I am talking about doing things like that. OH WELL! If it means in the end (haha-get your mind out of the gutter), I get to live a much more product life because I am able to keep on doing those things I love to do...THEN BRING ON THE BACKLESS GOWN!!! :)
It has been VERY stressful over the last few days because it is our deadline week. BUT WE GOT IT PUT TO BED TODAY!!! WAHOO!!! That is such a wonderful feeling when you push that send button for the final time and you watch as cyber space whisks your files over to be turned in the magazine! AND EVEN WITH THE STRESS OF THAT...I did pretty good with my eating. OK, except for maybe last night when a freind of mine brought over these decadent chocolate brownies. Hey, I only had four of them. Ok, maybe those four were the equivilent of a half of a pan of brownies. Ok and so maybe it was the 13x9 pan and not the little 8x8 pan. OK, OK...I broke down and indulged...BUT IT WAS SO WORTH IT!!! I LOVE BROWNIES.
And Dr. Shurtlef even said today that it is ok to have those sweet treats...as long as I am willing to put in the extra work to burn off those extra sugar calories. OH MAN...THAT MEANS LIKE 3 MONTHS ON MY TREADMILL TO BURN OFF THOSE BROWNIES I JUST ATE. :) It will be worth it in the end though when I hit my target goal of 150 lbs.
Dr. Shurtlef and I talked about it today and we both agree 150 lbs is a great place for me to be! BUT...
HERE COMES THE SCARY PART...
READY TO HEAR IT...
HOW MUCH WEIGHT I HAVE TO LOSE THAT IS....
I AM TOTALLY PROCRASTINATING TELLING YOU, CAN'T YOU TELL...
100 lbs!!!!
Yes, you heard me right, I am going to lose 100 lbs. over the next year while we are doing our weight lose contest. It is not going to be easy and I know this, but I know that I can do it! And i want to do it! I don't want to give up things like riding my horse because I am afraid I will hurt her. I want to feel better, I don't want my body to hurt all the time because my weight stresses out my joints, and yes...I want to have crazy wild sex with my husband without parts moving that really shouldn't be moving! (Dude, it totally ruins the moment!)
Well, the next step is the nutrionist who is going to help me with setting up the right kind of menu so that I am eating the right foods at the right time. (Notice I did not say diet?) I am wanting to change my life and I will and you will get to see it all because this is REAL LIFE!!!
Michelle 11-20-2008
So I went in today and got my physical. UGH...he is talking about a colonoscopy, which totally makes me feel old if I am talking about doing things like that. OH WELL! If it means in the end (haha-get your mind out of the gutter), I get to live a much more product life because I am able to keep on doing those things I love to do...THEN BRING ON THE BACKLESS GOWN!!! :)
It has been VERY stressful over the last few days because it is our deadline week. BUT WE GOT IT PUT TO BED TODAY!!! WAHOO!!! That is such a wonderful feeling when you push that send button for the final time and you watch as cyber space whisks your files over to be turned in the magazine! AND EVEN WITH THE STRESS OF THAT...I did pretty good with my eating. OK, except for maybe last night when a freind of mine brought over these decadent chocolate brownies. Hey, I only had four of them. Ok, maybe those four were the equivilent of a half of a pan of brownies. Ok and so maybe it was the 13x9 pan and not the little 8x8 pan. OK, OK...I broke down and indulged...BUT IT WAS SO WORTH IT!!! I LOVE BROWNIES.
And Dr. Shurtlef even said today that it is ok to have those sweet treats...as long as I am willing to put in the extra work to burn off those extra sugar calories. OH MAN...THAT MEANS LIKE 3 MONTHS ON MY TREADMILL TO BURN OFF THOSE BROWNIES I JUST ATE. :) It will be worth it in the end though when I hit my target goal of 150 lbs.
Dr. Shurtlef and I talked about it today and we both agree 150 lbs is a great place for me to be! BUT...
HERE COMES THE SCARY PART...
READY TO HEAR IT...
HOW MUCH WEIGHT I HAVE TO LOSE THAT IS....
I AM TOTALLY PROCRASTINATING TELLING YOU, CAN'T YOU TELL...
100 lbs!!!!
Yes, you heard me right, I am going to lose 100 lbs. over the next year while we are doing our weight lose contest. It is not going to be easy and I know this, but I know that I can do it! And i want to do it! I don't want to give up things like riding my horse because I am afraid I will hurt her. I want to feel better, I don't want my body to hurt all the time because my weight stresses out my joints, and yes...I want to have crazy wild sex with my husband without parts moving that really shouldn't be moving! (Dude, it totally ruins the moment!)
Well, the next step is the nutrionist who is going to help me with setting up the right kind of menu so that I am eating the right foods at the right time. (Notice I did not say diet?) I am wanting to change my life and I will and you will get to see it all because this is REAL LIFE!!!
Michelle 11-20-2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
Baby Steps
Ok, so how many of you have seen that movie "What About Bob"? Well if you have then you will totally know what I mean when I say baby steps, if you haven't then I will explain just real quick. Bob is this guy with TONS of fears! (Worse then Monk...almost!) Ya gotta watch USA to know what I am talking about. So Bob drives this one therapist nuts because he is so "needy" and this therapist refers him to another therapist who is basking in the glory of his self help book entitled "Baby Steps".
The gist of the story is that this therapist helps Bob to overcome LOTS of his fears by telling him that anything can be done with baby steps! One small step at a time. Bob becomes obsessed with this nee therapist and way funny things happen and blah, blah, blah...
THE POINT IS THE BABY STEPS!!!!
That was my day today. Seriously, I woke up this morning and was totally depressed and was going to even ditch out on my responsibilities with work (I can, I am kinda the boss!) and even make my husband take my kids to school since he was leaving for work then also. And then my beautiful daughter came running in reminded me she was Top Cat. This is a special honor Neola Elementary does for their students and each week one student from each grade is chosen and they get to display their personal effects in a case in the front hall for all their friends to see. THIS A REALLY HUGE DEAL FOR AN 8-YEAR OLD and I couldn't be the loser mom (another one of my self talk struggles) who wasn't there to help her put her stuff in the case.
AAAAHHHH!!!! THIS MEANS I HAVE 15 MINUTES TO GET DRESSED, DO HAIR, GET MAKE-UP ON AND GET THESE KIDS TO SCHOOL!!!! I have to have my make-up on...please chil', me not have on make-up! HAH! So I do this!
Well, now I am dressed and ready to go to work which I needed to anyways, so the first thing I do is start to PRO-CRAS-TIN-ATE. Can you all say it with me!?!?! Yes, I am a last minute type person WHICH IS NOT GOOD!!!
So I go to the office get on the comp and make an ad and tell Jennifer she has to go and deliver it (see, once again I am pretending to be the boss! :)!) Well since I sent her out to work I am beginning to feel a little more motivated, but only a little...I cut out my first thing in the morning 6 pack of diet coke...I WAS DEAD!!! And man I had a headache, ok so not a 6 pack, but still u know what I mean, I am trying to live healthy here!
Well then I have to take my youngest to preschool and as I drive to town I keep telling myself things like "Well your never going to sell an ad today!" "He He He! You're fat and no one takes you serious anyways" (Yes I say this crap to myself all the time!)
Well you wanna know what, I did sell an ad, and then I came home and made a halfway healthy dinner! (hey man, at least I made dinner, normally it is cold cereal OR deli at Jubilee!)
Ok so there was alot of other stuff that went on too but I don't want to bore you...
THE POINT IS...
I took baby steps and even when I was trying to talk myself out of doing what I needed to do, because I had taken a few small steps and I had the support of family and friends (whether they knew it or not!) I MADE PROGRESS TODAY!!!
It is important to know that when it comes to weight loss this is a lifestyle change, which means even how I structure my day will have to adjust in order for me to be successful.
BUT IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!!!
It has too because I want more from life then self doubt and negative self talk.
AND I GO SEE MY DOC ON THURSDAY FOR MY PHYSICAL. AAAHHH! SO SCARY, I will let you all know what I find out!
Talk to you later.
Michelle 11-17-2008
The gist of the story is that this therapist helps Bob to overcome LOTS of his fears by telling him that anything can be done with baby steps! One small step at a time. Bob becomes obsessed with this nee therapist and way funny things happen and blah, blah, blah...
THE POINT IS THE BABY STEPS!!!!
That was my day today. Seriously, I woke up this morning and was totally depressed and was going to even ditch out on my responsibilities with work (I can, I am kinda the boss!) and even make my husband take my kids to school since he was leaving for work then also. And then my beautiful daughter came running in reminded me she was Top Cat. This is a special honor Neola Elementary does for their students and each week one student from each grade is chosen and they get to display their personal effects in a case in the front hall for all their friends to see. THIS A REALLY HUGE DEAL FOR AN 8-YEAR OLD and I couldn't be the loser mom (another one of my self talk struggles) who wasn't there to help her put her stuff in the case.
AAAAHHHH!!!! THIS MEANS I HAVE 15 MINUTES TO GET DRESSED, DO HAIR, GET MAKE-UP ON AND GET THESE KIDS TO SCHOOL!!!! I have to have my make-up on...please chil', me not have on make-up! HAH! So I do this!
Well, now I am dressed and ready to go to work which I needed to anyways, so the first thing I do is start to PRO-CRAS-TIN-ATE. Can you all say it with me!?!?! Yes, I am a last minute type person WHICH IS NOT GOOD!!!
So I go to the office get on the comp and make an ad and tell Jennifer she has to go and deliver it (see, once again I am pretending to be the boss! :)!) Well since I sent her out to work I am beginning to feel a little more motivated, but only a little...I cut out my first thing in the morning 6 pack of diet coke...I WAS DEAD!!! And man I had a headache, ok so not a 6 pack, but still u know what I mean, I am trying to live healthy here!
Well then I have to take my youngest to preschool and as I drive to town I keep telling myself things like "Well your never going to sell an ad today!" "He He He! You're fat and no one takes you serious anyways" (Yes I say this crap to myself all the time!)
Well you wanna know what, I did sell an ad, and then I came home and made a halfway healthy dinner! (hey man, at least I made dinner, normally it is cold cereal OR deli at Jubilee!)
Ok so there was alot of other stuff that went on too but I don't want to bore you...
THE POINT IS...
I took baby steps and even when I was trying to talk myself out of doing what I needed to do, because I had taken a few small steps and I had the support of family and friends (whether they knew it or not!) I MADE PROGRESS TODAY!!!
It is important to know that when it comes to weight loss this is a lifestyle change, which means even how I structure my day will have to adjust in order for me to be successful.
BUT IT IS GOING TO HAPPEN!!!
It has too because I want more from life then self doubt and negative self talk.
AND I GO SEE MY DOC ON THURSDAY FOR MY PHYSICAL. AAAHHH! SO SCARY, I will let you all know what I find out!
Talk to you later.
Michelle 11-17-2008
Sunday, November 16, 2008
"We Are The Champions...Of The World!"
OK...
So this whole food journal thing REALLY SUCKS!!! :) I can't lie to myself about the amount of food I eat or sometimes don't eat. I have a problem of not eating and then binging. Not good. Today I did pretty good though except for here it is late at night and I GET SNACKY...AND NOT FOR CARROTS.
I want to good stuff baby, the chocolate, the sugar, the salt, THE CALORIES!!! I have got to readjust my sleeping habits and get up earlier instead of staying up late like so many of us moms do.
I know you have the same problem as I do...
Stay up late to get stuff done and then you cant roll your big hiney out of bed to go and exercise. But it really is because I work from home most of the time and I have an open door policy with my office (actually I have NO DOOR on my office). If my kids need me, I am there. I need to learn how to better manage my time so that I do not have to stay up until 2 AM and then I will be able to get up at 5 AM a lot easier!
It will happen...I know it will. I will happen because I will make it happen. I have done this before when I was going to school at U of U and I had a 7 AM class and had to drive down from Heber everyday. It is all a matter of mind set!
How do you chose to spend this day? You do realize once this day is gone, you will never get it back, so make sure you are doing what you know will make your day the fullest!
Talk to you later BECAUSE I AM GOING TO BED!!! Big work day tomorrow for the girls and I since it is deadline week and we are still working on a few ads and a few articles. THE JOYS OF BEING A PUBLISHER!!! And of course A MOM!!!
Michelle 11-16-2008
So this whole food journal thing REALLY SUCKS!!! :) I can't lie to myself about the amount of food I eat or sometimes don't eat. I have a problem of not eating and then binging. Not good. Today I did pretty good though except for here it is late at night and I GET SNACKY...AND NOT FOR CARROTS.
I want to good stuff baby, the chocolate, the sugar, the salt, THE CALORIES!!! I have got to readjust my sleeping habits and get up earlier instead of staying up late like so many of us moms do.
I know you have the same problem as I do...
Stay up late to get stuff done and then you cant roll your big hiney out of bed to go and exercise. But it really is because I work from home most of the time and I have an open door policy with my office (actually I have NO DOOR on my office). If my kids need me, I am there. I need to learn how to better manage my time so that I do not have to stay up until 2 AM and then I will be able to get up at 5 AM a lot easier!
It will happen...I know it will. I will happen because I will make it happen. I have done this before when I was going to school at U of U and I had a 7 AM class and had to drive down from Heber everyday. It is all a matter of mind set!
How do you chose to spend this day? You do realize once this day is gone, you will never get it back, so make sure you are doing what you know will make your day the fullest!
Talk to you later BECAUSE I AM GOING TO BED!!! Big work day tomorrow for the girls and I since it is deadline week and we are still working on a few ads and a few articles. THE JOYS OF BEING A PUBLISHER!!! And of course A MOM!!!
Michelle 11-16-2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
One more day...
Ok Christine sucks! :)!!! (I AM SO KIDDING!! I can say this because I love her and we have been friends forever.) Her and her karate. Actually you guys, she is really awesome at being healthy which is why I have so much respect for her and why I am worried about going up against her in this contest.
But at least I know I have two very worthy opponents and for that I am so grateful.
Today another bad day, but a least it is getting better. Fewer calories which is good. I have not yet meet with the nutritionist because I will do that next week, but I have had some experience about the types of foods my body does well on and which ones that it doesn't do so well with. I am trying to retrain myself to gravitate towards those healthy snacks and it is hard. I have many years to work against when it comes to how I am behaving with my body.
It will come though. Each day (and it is only the 3rd day) I find myself with more and more control even if I am not making perfect choices everyday, at least I am making one better choice each day. Like having the apple instead of the cookie tonight! I hope this gives hope to those of you out there who think that they can't do it! I KNOW YOU CAN IF I CAN!!! Let's do it together.
Thanks for following us on our journeys and PLEASE POST COMMENTS SO WE KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!
Michelle - 11-15-08
But at least I know I have two very worthy opponents and for that I am so grateful.
Today another bad day, but a least it is getting better. Fewer calories which is good. I have not yet meet with the nutritionist because I will do that next week, but I have had some experience about the types of foods my body does well on and which ones that it doesn't do so well with. I am trying to retrain myself to gravitate towards those healthy snacks and it is hard. I have many years to work against when it comes to how I am behaving with my body.
It will come though. Each day (and it is only the 3rd day) I find myself with more and more control even if I am not making perfect choices everyday, at least I am making one better choice each day. Like having the apple instead of the cookie tonight! I hope this gives hope to those of you out there who think that they can't do it! I KNOW YOU CAN IF I CAN!!! Let's do it together.
Thanks for following us on our journeys and PLEASE POST COMMENTS SO WE KNOW HOW YOU FEEL!
Michelle - 11-15-08
Friday, November 14, 2008
THIS IS HARD!!!
Ok, so today was horrible right! All I could do was think about how I am supposed to be starting this big change and I ATE MORE AND MORE!!!
I had a nice roasted chicken sandwich from Round Robin only to have it slathered in ranch and big ol' fat piece of Canadian bacon on it! AAAHHH!!!! Then I had a doughnut on top of it. Not a good day, but as least I am having a salad for dinner. Good for me and my waistline. I can already tell you what i am going to have the hardest time getting rid of...MY DIET COKE!!! I LOVE IT!!!
Well, I will keep you posted! 11-14-2008
I had a nice roasted chicken sandwich from Round Robin only to have it slathered in ranch and big ol' fat piece of Canadian bacon on it! AAAHHH!!!! Then I had a doughnut on top of it. Not a good day, but as least I am having a salad for dinner. Good for me and my waistline. I can already tell you what i am going to have the hardest time getting rid of...MY DIET COKE!!! I LOVE IT!!!
Well, I will keep you posted! 11-14-2008
Thursday, November 13, 2008
IT BEGINS!
Ok! I am so excited just so VERY SCARED to on this challenage. I won't lie, I am a bit of a control freak and so this means that I like to show that I am in control of my surroundings and that what I do, I do on purpose. So for me to admit that my weight is YUCKY...well it is hard to swallow. Ha ha, ok not so much hard to swallow because otherwise I wouldn't have a weight issue huh!
So Jennifer came up with this great plan to help all of us get in shape and help to change our lives so that we are living a better life. I am scared...I love to eat! I worry about having to face the reasons why I eat! I am an emotional eater and the more stressed I become, the more rich and decadent the desserts become! That is why I am so glad that Jennifer offered up this great idea for us to go and get our lives on the right track.
Christine, Jennifer, and I are in this competition because it is easier to have the moral support while you undertake something like changing your lifestyle. We are going to be updating this blog often and yes you will be able to see our stats and our progress because it will make us accountable to not only ourselves, BUT YOU OUR READERS!!! Please bear with me though! I am weak and I will admit it there is a really good chance that I am going to have set backs on my eating habits. But I want you to now that I am still going to work at it! I am going to put it all out there for you to see so that you can see my true progress!
I am so very excited about us being able to get back to the gym and work out! I can not wait until I am able to start lifting those wieghts and feeling that horrible soreness the day after! Lol! you know what I mean if you have ever had a really good work out! AND THE SECOND DAY IS THE WORSE! Oh well. Like I said, I am excited and I really do hope you will join along side with us!
So here I go! I am scared but excited and I am ready! I am ready to make my life better by making my body healthier! ARE YOU GOING TO JOIN ME ON THE HEALTHY EDGE! 11-13-2008
So Jennifer came up with this great plan to help all of us get in shape and help to change our lives so that we are living a better life. I am scared...I love to eat! I worry about having to face the reasons why I eat! I am an emotional eater and the more stressed I become, the more rich and decadent the desserts become! That is why I am so glad that Jennifer offered up this great idea for us to go and get our lives on the right track.
Christine, Jennifer, and I are in this competition because it is easier to have the moral support while you undertake something like changing your lifestyle. We are going to be updating this blog often and yes you will be able to see our stats and our progress because it will make us accountable to not only ourselves, BUT YOU OUR READERS!!! Please bear with me though! I am weak and I will admit it there is a really good chance that I am going to have set backs on my eating habits. But I want you to now that I am still going to work at it! I am going to put it all out there for you to see so that you can see my true progress!
I am so very excited about us being able to get back to the gym and work out! I can not wait until I am able to start lifting those wieghts and feeling that horrible soreness the day after! Lol! you know what I mean if you have ever had a really good work out! AND THE SECOND DAY IS THE WORSE! Oh well. Like I said, I am excited and I really do hope you will join along side with us!
So here I go! I am scared but excited and I am ready! I am ready to make my life better by making my body healthier! ARE YOU GOING TO JOIN ME ON THE HEALTHY EDGE! 11-13-2008
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